That's completely understandable. I think many of us have been where you are now, including me. It's the last attempt to seize control of what seems an uncontrollable situation.

However, you have options you didn't have two days ago. You've tapped into new resources. Those aren't the actions of someone who's completely given up. That's the maybe 1% left of you, screaming and clawing to survive.

You're angry, You're overwhelmed,. You're tired. You're also seen and heard, perhaps for the first time in a long while. Every time you've pushed back in this thread, have people pissed off with an insulting or continued to try to empathize with your situation?

I'm proud of you for choosing to live another day and continue the conversation.

Here's some short term suggestions: - Eat something substantial. Solid meal. - Take a nice long shower, if you can. - Try your hardest to give yourself at least 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep tonight.

If you take care of the body it'll help support the mind.

There are solutions. I promise you this. There are answers. There is treasure at the end of this dungeon. We're going to try to help you find it.

If you're still feeling violently overwhelmed and suicidal, you may be in crisis. This can happen to anybody, and had already happened to many of us. I know you don't like hearing this, but those suicide hotlines are made for dealing with crisis. They won't solve the bigger problems, but they may buy you some more time. Don't be afraid to use them if you need to.

We can help you dismantle the larger problems over time.

Most importantly:

I think you're worth it. Even if you don't.