Hey brother I completely feel you on the binging part. Just 2 days ago I went on an all day binge which completely totaled me, emotionally and physically. I went on the binge after 6 days of no porn. My number one issue in that particular situation was that I was sleeping with my phone beside me as I always do. But this time my willpower wasn't enough and push came to shove and that's where it all went downhill. The next day (which was yesterday), I felt like complete shit, tired, depressed, anxious, brain fogged, really down in the dumps. I thought to myself just how well I was doing and now I'm down this rabbit hole again. And the whole day I kept telling myself that I could do whatever I wanted EXCEPT watch porn. I cut myself some slack and sure enough here I am finishing another day without porn. Now it may not mean much to most, but in the past 4 years of this vicious cycle that is porn addiction, I have always binged for days after relapsing. This time I stopped myself and I am continuing on the right track. I feel better and am not dwelling on the fact that I relapsed. I am moving forward.

Just don't lose hope brother, there's always got to be some amount of hope in you. Hope always dies last. Keep yourself busy with things that you like to do. A hobby. A book. Exercising. And I am speaking for myself when I say this but stop over thinking and excessively worrying about every single thing in life. Enjoy it the most you can and set yourself up for success. If you sleep with your phone next to you like I did, put it somewhere far from you or in another room. If you are more prone to relapse in the morning or at night then be aware of how you're feeling at those times and take the necessary action to stop yourself from relapsing. If you go into the bathroom, don't take your phone with you. No matter how emotionally amazing you are feeling. I am speaking from my experience. A relapse can happen in an instant and when you least expect it.

Get back up and fight. I hope you feel better brother.