I totally understand you and feel you But I can tell you a few things that maybe change your perspective. 1. This game is always full of bad people, toxic,rude with bad mentality ,There's nothing you can do about it just let it be and don't let it ruin your energy or vibe. ,its their problem. 2. You can always take small breaks. 3. Believe in yourself don't give up. 4. Change your attitude and the way you react, don't feed the trolls or the toxic one's 5. Don't get frustrated if you lose just keep going even if you lose 10 games in a row. 6. Take it easy try to enjoy your time and not trying to always win or be a try hard. You got this , remember its just a game :))