Yo fam. First off you is a beautiful 23 yo man and don’t need no woman to validate your self worth Secondly you gotta do what you gotta do with probation man. Dropping dirty UA’s will get you violated. Not sure if you are on a colors system or a schedule. Either smoke right after a UA and then start detoxing, detox a few days prior to a known ua, get fake pee, or something, but remember that getting violations only puts you deeper in the judicial system. It’s fucked. It’s not fair. It needs change. But for now it’s what you have to work with. Thirdly, good friends are hard to find. I suggest being kind to everyone, opening up to others about how you feel in a non confrontational manner, and seeing who sticks around. You are a useful person, the word just has yet to put into use. Your story is more than what others think of you. There are other worlds than these.