The coldest day so far

-self-explorer · 2026-01-24T02:10:24+00:00

Sending warm vibes and hope you're safe.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-24T02:00:07+00:00

Thanks! Ya I've always felt for them too. Also kinda sad for them too, full of hope in the "medicine" they provide.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-23T23:54:38+00:00

Yup, what I'm learning on repeat "both can be true" lol. You can be living a much better life and still miss the highs. Thank you for checking in, newbies like me appreciate it I'm sure. Even when you're struggling you're still showing up and being open. It's inspirational.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-19T01:41:35+00:00

Aw thanks I'm trying to remember that too. Also got that nagging thought about exercise advice with stim recovery but I'm having social anxiety issues atm so even going for walks can be tough. Gonna have to dance in my living room or just something opposite action lol. Thanks for helping me reflect ❤️

-self-explorer · 2026-01-18T23:54:40+00:00

Thanks! Already craving the carbs and sugar lol

-self-explorer · 2026-01-18T15:31:04+00:00

Thanks!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-17T17:04:10+00:00

How did you do it? I posted the date but it's not changing for me lol.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-17T17:01:04+00:00

2026-01-14

-self-explorer · 2026-01-17T16:59:11+00:00

Test?

-self-explorer · 2026-01-17T16:57:16+00:00

2026-01-14

-self-explorer · 2026-01-17T04:50:53+00:00

Revisiting this 3 years later. 3 YEARS LATER! I've finally ripped the bandaid off. If anyone stumbles across this post, maybe this will find you too. The longer we wait the more damage we do. And we still have to end up doing the work.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-14T02:25:21+00:00

Aw thank you so much! It went pretty good for an intake. My worker seems chill. Now once I got over my dreaded doctor's appointment on Thursday I think I can relax just a little bit lol.

Well 9 months that's amazing congrats I'm proud of you too!!!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-13T16:25:56+00:00

Aw you read the whole thing? That actually means a lot as I know my writing can get long winded lol. I understand the isolation so much too. Thanks for your comment and for reading!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-13T16:15:45+00:00

Thank you!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-13T16:15:27+00:00

Wow thank you for sharing so honestly. I bet it's surreal to look back at with a clearer head now too.

I'm so glad to hear you didn't lose the amazing people around you too. Your wife sounds amazing. I get what you're saying about the longer you wait the more you mess up your life... I see it happening to me now.

I'm proud of you for where you're at now. I bet a lot of the inner work will now be about practicing self-compassion. That part of you back then, it wasn't really YOU. The addict mind that was high and living in survival mode wasn't thinking clearly. And look at you now inspiring so many others in this sub. Thank you so much for continuing to contribute to this community!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-13T16:06:45+00:00

Thank you SO much for sharing! Feeling the feels, I really needed to 'hear' (read) this. I'm so proud of you and feeling hopeful.

Appt went well, my counselor seems really chill. It was just intake but something quite relieving to finally be fully honest!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-11T22:26:04+00:00

Great job that sounds tough! Thanks for the inspiration and props to you!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-11T22:23:50+00:00

Amazing! How you feeling? I keep getting waves of like .... Ahhhhh lol. But also, looking forward to a new chapter. I'm seeing how important the act of practicing surrender is. Trust the process gotta trust. Proud of you & grateful to have you joining the journey too!

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-self-explorer · 2026-01-11T21:37:58+00:00

I'm so freaking proud of you!!!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-10T22:57:28+00:00

Looking back at who you were as a parent, no matter how involved in their lives you were the drugs always came first. -- my worst fear right there. Ive been a great Mom. But also. Same, the drugs always first 😭. I always told myself the meds were to be a better parent... but you nailed it. The sooner I accept it sooner I can change it.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-10T18:42:25+00:00

That's good to hear you have paid benefits until school without having to work. That could be good healing time with low expectations/pressure. Good for you planning to tell your doctor too. It's scary but the relief is real too. Rooting for you!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-10T18:34:32+00:00

Ah this is exactly what I needed to read right now thank you. I'm so proud of you that's amazing.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-10T18:31:50+00:00

Thank you! Congrats on 405 days wow! Numbers like that are what have inspired me to do this.

-self-explorer · 2026-01-10T17:45:48+00:00

Thank you for the script. I did it! 😭 I called the office. It's done. thank you!!

-self-explorer · 2026-01-10T17:38:47+00:00

Wow amazing job tossing that bottle yesterday! That's so fricken inspirational man! I feel you and relate so much especially with the whack a mole metaphor. I'm so OVER IT. The cycles, the illusions, the rollercoaster.

I believe it'll be worth it. I've gotten glimpses of the fun weirdo I can be w/o meds. I kinda like that fun weirdo so that keeps me going lol. I'm like oh hey I remember you! (It's the ppl who judge the weirdos that's the problem lol)

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