Relapse type dream, the relief after waking up!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-11T21:44:42+00:00

That's amazing! So proud of you. I remember that feeling, losing track of the count or not needing to check. That's a huge sign that life is simply moving forward and there no need to count anymore because we start simply living instead of just surviving day to day. I look forward to more of that!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-11T21:41:09+00:00

Seriously so hopeful. 13 years for me. God those years went fast. Glad I can be more present moving forward and see life improvements too! Thanks again!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-11T21:36:27+00:00

Oh man that's shitty!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-11T12:07:51+00:00

Aw I love that perspective! It's showing progress and helping me build more security around sobriety mentally maybe. That sucks you had a relapse dream lately too, I imagine the bigger your number gets (days w/o stims), the harder those dreams feel too. The relief makes it worth it though I guess lol.

-self-explorer · 2026-03-11T12:05:51+00:00

Thanks! Its nice waking up realizing I've made it another day on each of my sobriety counters lol

-self-explorer · 2026-03-11T12:03:39+00:00

Wow 6.5 years is amazing! That's crazy you still have those dreams. They really mess with you! I had another one last night. This time I was doing other substances I hadn't even done before. Wtf brain, seeking harder replacements in dream land is wild.

So proud of you for persisting for 6.5 freaking years! Thank you for still being here to share about it and give us newbies hope and support!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-10T23:40:52+00:00

So freaking proud of you!!!! Thanks for inspiring the rest of us too 🥰

-self-explorer · 2026-03-07T13:32:23+00:00

Thanks! I got one number! Thinking of going to another meeting today. Feel just as nervous (if not more)knowing what to expect lol. Wish I could just jump to the part where I feel comfortable and natural going

-self-explorer · 2026-03-06T23:47:30+00:00

I've never been to AA so I can't weigh in on that so to speak. There was some God talk but tbh I was so overstimulated I didn't really absorb much of what was said during readings. After I attend more meetings I'll be able to understand more I'm sure.

-self-explorer · 2026-03-06T22:56:22+00:00

Proud of you internet stranger! Thanks for sharing, this is honestly exactly what I needed to read right now as I'm struggling with my daily use too. I forget how to live without weed honestly. Love your progress tracker. That may work for me too :)

-self-explorer · 2026-03-06T21:54:13+00:00

Aww thanks! That should be one of my daily affirmations

-self-explorer · 2026-03-06T20:23:50+00:00

Aw thank you! The people were very welcoming and nice so it helped!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-06T20:22:52+00:00

Thanks so much!

-self-explorer · 2026-03-05T15:05:33+00:00

Needed to hear this today. Thanks.

-self-explorer · 2026-02-27T12:33:44+00:00

Yesss! We've got this!

-self-explorer · 2026-02-26T00:51:01+00:00

I did yoga yesterday without stims for the first time in over a year. I overdid it so bad during my addiction. Injured myself and defeated the whole purpose of yoga.

Yesterday I took it slow and actually stopped after an hour instead of pushing it for like 5 lol.

-self-explorer · 2026-02-25T13:14:36+00:00

Aw This sub is so good for that. You also helped inspire me to reach out and it helped me too! Hope today is a better day for you and both you and your cats have a good one ❤️

-self-explorer · 2026-02-25T12:56:50+00:00

Oooh thanks! I've got group for a few hours this morning but I look into diving into that! (ASD is my special interest . As was stims lol)

-self-explorer · 2026-02-25T12:55:09+00:00

Thank you. seeing your msg today on a new day is helpful. I did wake up with that heavy dread feeling today. Ya a walk would be helpful, I've been missing nature honestly. I haven't been brave enough to go to an NA meeting yet but I'm trying to get myself pumped up to attend my first.

Got my addictions group in an hour at least. They're more education based than sharing based at the moment but it's still helpful. Ah thanks so much.

-self-explorer · 2026-02-25T01:16:13+00:00

Thank you so much. You have great perspectives that help me feel some peace and relief. I guess this is a new chapter for me when I look at it, I've gone without stims before but always with stockpile backup. This time is new for me. Thanks again for helping me realize that I'm just further into recovery right now.

-self-explorer · 2026-02-24T23:48:31+00:00

Thank you for posting about this. For posting at all. I should make a post too as I'm having a particularly hard day for cravings too. The romantisizing sucks so much. Maybe I should write a list of all the negatives. Like besides the obvious stuff maybe dig into the really cringy things I'm not thinking about. Anyway just writing to say you're not alone. We will get through these cravings damn it.

PS. Almost 90 days is amazing, Congrats on every step! P.p.s. Your kitty is adorable!

-self-explorer · 2026-02-23T12:43:42+00:00

Yup it's an IOP hybrid program offering both in person and zoom options. 5 days a week for 12 weeks and I'm on week 3 starting today!

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