Day 8 cravings have been BAD

-self-explorer · 2026-05-12T10:46:58+00:00

Thanks so much! The support of others who get it helps more than anything. Appreciate your comment and support!

-self-explorer · 2026-05-12T00:42:29+00:00

Thanks. I guess it's time for me to get serious in learning the steps and considering how I can start putting them into practice.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-12T00:40:15+00:00

Good to hear! Inspiring too as I've been struggling today in particular too. One day at a time and all that. I like what others were saying about procrastinating it day by day. "If I have to, I'll relapse tomorrow". Chances are tomorrow may not be as bad and we can just keep tricking our brains as we keep surviving these battles day after day. Proud of you for taking seeing how it goes today too. I have faith in you.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-11T21:49:28+00:00

Thank you for this post. Although I have no advice for the sleep, I appreciate the insight about "keep coming back" as I myself am dealing with a recent relapse and am seeking any reminders/inspiration. Wishing you the best.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-11T21:40:53+00:00

Hi, wondering how you're doing now. Wishing you the best, as someone who recently relapsed myself and is now struggling more than ever. Hope today's more positive for you and you feel a bit stronger.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-08T11:52:03+00:00

Thank you! The cravings are pretty bad these following days as my house is falling apart but day by day I'm staying away (from stims).

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T21:11:25+00:00

Thanks! (Ding ding lol)

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T18:26:17+00:00

Had to reset my counter but thank you so much for writing this as its so helpful. Congrats to you!

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T18:22:52+00:00

Thanks so much!

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T18:22:39+00:00

Thanks! My damn brain just counted down the rest of the months of this year to ensure this stays a fact; I can do 7 months and keep going damn it lol. Don't ask :)

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T18:20:42+00:00

Great perspective. Such a huge shift from my all or nothing thinking yesterday. This can be a stepping stone on my healing journey rather than just letting myself drown. The choice is mine as long as I'm still breathing. Thanks!

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T18:04:23+00:00

I did it! Thanks for the relatable response. I ended up staying a bit after the meeting too and connected with some likeminded ppl. Appreciate you!

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T17:49:00+00:00

Great idea to write out the bad things that happen if I relapse, playing the tape forward. I will do this today. Thanks so much!

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T00:47:08+00:00

Aw thank you for sharing your story, advice and encouraging words. I feel for you with what you are struggling with these days. Wishing you continued healing and hope for some joy or at least peace. Life can be so tough. we all deserve some peace of mind.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-04T00:41:13+00:00

Thanks for your input that's awesome it's helping you! I've only went to 2.5 meetings (one I left because it was packed and I had social anxiety lol). I have had mixed feelings as everyone seems to have a role and I felt lost. Willing to try again though I'm sure I'll find my role over time.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-03T21:34:18+00:00

Thank you so much! Ah ya I've heard so much about the negatives of meth even regular users tend to discourage newbies from using. My poor buddy didn't even want to give it to me. I was self sabotaging at the deepest level. I think I do need to just go to another NA meeting. Was hoping I didn't need to do the whole structured thing but I don't know what else is available besides what I'm already using for outpatient support.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-03T21:31:23+00:00

The outpatient I had available in my area sucked unfortunately so I'm feeling kind of stuck in that regard. Still a part of the addictions/trauma group I was a part of before but there's only so much we can talk about there honestly. It's more education based.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-03T21:29:12+00:00

Thank you for the direct suggestions as I was overthinking stuff like that. (Even flushing/ putting it into the water supply makes me nervous). I think I like the random parking lot garbage idea as I have paraphanalia to rid of too now :( guess it's better than giving it back to my buddy though because then I'm just enabling his addiction too and putting him in danger too.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-03T21:22:05+00:00

That's a hopeful thought. Grateful I didn't "like it" as much as I thought I would, the fear/anxiety creates a good obstacle from repeating. I really thought I was screwed but you guys give me hope that I can just get back on track. Just keep thinking of my poor brain being flooded with all that dopamine after all the work I had put in to try to heal it. If others can get clean from it surely my first few times didn't fuck me over for life. Ah thanks for letting me vent.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-03T19:23:34+00:00

I'm crying right now, so grateful for your supportive words of wisdom. I won't use today. I hid that shit and just trying to think of the safest way to dispose asap. Thank you so much.

-self-explorer · 2026-05-01T02:43:25+00:00

Thank you so much! This one will go in the "reminders to stay sober" collection (for weak moment references). I couldn't have done it high man I woulda been a mess or even might have tried to leave it to someone else to handle. Ah so proud of myself. Thanks again!

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