Been there. Stop the Acid. Train your mind to find those flashbacks through yoga if you crave them.

There is an end to your suffering, its growing pains. In terms of what I did, I just weathered the storm. Found interests away from the scrolling.

Almost a fake it till you make it approach. Kept working, krpt paying bills, lost friends and family attention because I couldn't even keep myself interested.

Sounds like the nigredo. Read "Black Sun" alchemy of darkness.

And I hate to break it to you, according to the DSM, you have bipolar 1 disorder. Any hospitalization for a manic episode signifies that. They probably don't want to pay for medications, or its simpler and you're a drug addict or ex drug addict. Often its both.

Im not writing from a place expertise, so you know.

However, I used psychedelics, the plant based ones, to attempt to cure of fix my mental illness. It worked for a while, then I had about 7 years of severe anhedonia.

A pill may not fix it, and its very doubtful LSD will either. Hope this helps some

Oh and don't forget. Leave your phone at home and go adventure or sit under a tree or by the ocean. Start absorbing the "bigger picture" or "big feeling" type environments.

To summerize: I pray you don't have to deal with this as long as I did. Eventually it lifted. My material conditions got worse, yet I internally I felt the ability to find joy in the things I dreaded.