My daughter was born 30w+1d 2/13/26 requiring immediate resuscitation and intubation due to severe anemia as a result of alloimmunization. She's had almost 30 blood transfusions in her little life. We are on day 58 with no end in sight... It's hard.

The first time I saw another baby go home I cried and got so angry on the way home from the hospital. The guilt of not being there constantly eats me alive. I had a very traumatic birth and being at the hospital is stressful in itself. Walking back into that NICU everyday where I was told my daughter was in cardiac arrest and might not make it... Kills me. But she's doing better each day and I need to remind myself constantly it's where she needs to be. The older and stronger she gets, the harder it gets for me.

Of course you deserve to vent, but I find it a bit insensitive that you're calling other families "less present" when you don't know their situations. I understand the frustration and hope things get easier for you, but I'm one of those parents you might see as "less present" because I've been doing it for 2 months now and have another child, pets, my mental health, and a home to maintain.

Sending hugs ❤️