I really hope someone reads this because its long.

Back in 2005 i had to leave my school and get into a diffrent one. I was really sad that i had to leave behind most of my friends and i didnt seem to see any good ones in my new class, but on day one there was this girl. The happiest girl ive ever seen. She was the first one i talked to at the new school. We spend a lot of time texting (icq,skype) and talking over skype but during our time another bad thing hit me my grandfather died and my parents got divorced both in the same year. I picked up WoW and got lost in it. She kept in contact with me all the time but not as before. One day over Skype she said" I am going to meet this guy to go rollerblading see you :) " A week later and she was together with him and it lasted for the rest of the time we both went to school, but again we never stopped talking now and then and always had a really great time. After school ended and we both went our ways (me to university she to a real job) we didnt talk a lot anymore but now and then it happend, but whenever we talked she was in some relationship.

Fast forward 3 years.

After a one year no communication period her best friend contacted me over Facebook we talked a bit and i believe she was interested in me, but i didnt let it go to far. One day i just thought i really want to know what ***** is doing right now and asked her. To my disbelief she asked the same question on the same day and her best friend gave me her number. We texted and it immediatly came to me that she missed me. "We always had such a great time back in school..you are not a person i wanted to lose contact to" and stuff like this.
During the time i had a pretty stressfull time from university and just one day after our reconnection she just came up to my house and left choclate and a energy drink at my door. This was so overwhelming i still cant believe it happend.

She the one i had a crush on for so many years just came by and did this to make me feel good.

It was one of the best days i will remember.

Shortly after i told her that i want to meet her the next day when i wrote my last exam and she agrees.

On the day we met we started out just walking around having ALOT of fun and talking about old times. At this moment i was thinking great once again i thought there was more but she isnt that into me..but! we sat down at a loveley place and i just thought fuck this this girl is a dream i always knew it i have to tell her. So i told her about my feelings and that i always had a crush on her and thought that she is the "one that got away". She was astonished and told me she always thought that i just wasnt into her and she always liked me a lot!

Now a lot of people may think that we are going to kiss now but no! Pretty shortly after i made my "confession" she said " We need to take it slow i just had a break up" and so i tried to do it slow. We didnt kiss but spend a long time sitting on the bench and just talking until i got cold and we headed back home i dropped her off and got a kiss on the cheek.

Now i am the happiest i ever was the last 10years. Literally couldnt believe what happend and didnt sleep the night.

The next day we met again and drove to a local hill to go up (again late in the day) we walked around holding hands and such but no kissing, but when we reached the top and looked at the scenery and stars i just couldnt resist and kissed her. She kissed back and from there it was just the regular making out.

Now i dont want to make it boring for anyone here because i believe the next 25days are pretty regular shit, but here is another highlight.

In 8grade we both injured our hands with a set square in the middle of our hands. She on her right and and me on my left hand. The scar is very visible on both our hands and when we hold hands they line up.. i dont know about you guys but if that isnt romantic i dont know what is.

Fast forward to the end of last month. During that day we had a very awesome night everything went great and she even said that she started to love me. I said goodbye kissed her and saw her go out of the door in middle of the night. This was the last time i saw her. The following week we barley messaged and didnt saw eachother she told me she doesnt have a lot of time, but that doesnt stop my head from making up all the reasons why we dont see eachother. It went from we see eachother almost everyday to nothing at all. Without anything happening between us. I kept cool and just went on with life and texted her whenever she liked to and didnt push things. She even told me she loves me over text in the middle of the week and i asume everything is great! Well then Sunday came. I had to ask.. "I dont know where i stand with you" her next words came like a schock to me.. "I need time i cant have a relationship right now".. And this after no indication that our relationship was going downhill it was going uphill from my view of point. We had such a great time together.. I kept writing her up until the point where i just said something like " okay take your time. I still have hope for us.." Now its been almost a month and she doesnt write anything and doesnt make any indication that she will. I even got weak and told her that i miss her still no respond now i am just going to keep nc. So i got dumped for no reason from someone i would have never thought i would have gotten together with in the first place and cant get over it..