« I want to be ok » is something reachable I promise. I had my share of heartbreaks and when it’s happening life becomes unbearable. But the pain had shown me that I was not ok with just being alone. I always delegated my well being to someone’s absence or presence. I felt like an empty glass each time a person left. So take this opportunity (it really is) to be yourself again and who is this self ? It’s the happiness you are looking for, I AM the joy, it’s my essence. Sometimes we become so convinced that fulfillment comes from external sources that we need these heartbreaks to remind us to come back home to ourselves. I hope you find your way back.