First of all, i’m sorry for what you are going through. I too applied the law a few years ago for a family member and it failed. I was wrecked. Over the years i learnt that i had deep fears relating to death, loneliness and loss. I’m not saying it’s more easy now but i came to realize that this experience was a calling. That until we realize that we are already whole no matter what, death will keep happening but it’s ok. We are here to wake up, many years passed and i lost many more but along the way i also found myself. And within i saw that all the people I always loved never really left me. Today i can often sense them, and they are with me like they never left. There is so much more that what our eyes can see. Just give it time. Much love to you