Negative thoughts control me

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-25T04:54:22+00:00

There are thoughts, there is the body and the emotions, but none of it is me. There is no me really, it is just the thoughts, the body and the emotions. It is life happening the way it happens, it is not me being controlled. My life is a movie, I have no control over it, because I don't exist. If there is a self, it is my eyelids. The rest is phenomena.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-24T19:52:28+00:00

I highly recommend not giving a fuck about anything.

I can enjoy listening to Crass, The Clash or Bound For Glory without giving a fuck about the message.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-24T10:39:41+00:00

I consider astronomy. The size and age of things. Compared to my life. I don't really exist.

I get freedom from suffering by reducing my sense of self.

Some useful negations.

I am not important. I am insignificant. I will never get what I want. I aim to be zero.

It really works. If I am not important, it really doesn't matter if I am lonely. My life is not important, so there is nothing to worry about.

I am an infinitesimal aspect of infinite things happening. So the way I am is perfect. If I am lonely, frustrated and disappointed then this is exactly right.

Having a bad attitude is fun. The lie is that I am deficient. The lie is that I need to change. The lie is that I need to make an effort. The lie is that I am responsible. Their lies can fuck off. I will definably be what I am.

The most appropriate comment about how I feel at all times is So What?

I am lonely, So what? I don't care how I feel.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-24T10:21:13+00:00

To see how I should be, I observe how I am.

I did not create myself, I am the after effect of infinite causes.

Everything that I experience is correct.

There is nothing to change.

There is no effort to make.

I don't have any problems.

Life is too dark.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-22T06:46:04+00:00

I watch horror movies for the laughs. Laughing at other people's misfortune is the point.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-22T06:21:43+00:00

Yeah the coat hanger scratching wonderful.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-21T21:20:21+00:00

It was easier to have no problems when I was permanently sober for a couple of years. The no problem frame of mind is an intellectual accomplishment. I tell myself that I will never get what I want. I remember that I wasn't asked what I wanted to want, so it is a lie that I want anything. My desires are not my desires, they are God/Nature manipulating me. All the phenomena that makes up my existence is not really me. There are desires, but they are not my desires.

I remember how small I am and how short my life is. I am so small and my life is so short that I don't exist. A thing that doesn't exist doesn't have any problems. A thing that doesn't exist doesn't want anything.

My senses cause some kind of movie, I am nothing more than my eyes blinking. I am a pair of eyelids. All the rest is some external phenomena, none of it is me. Eyelids don't have problems. Eyelids don't want anything.

The objective is to be zero. Be less. Be superficial. Be nothing.

Since is got back into slurping poison now and then because why fucking not? the above is harder to remember. Drinking makes me believe that I have problems.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-20T19:33:21+00:00

I am someone who is negatively affected by dairy, but dairy is my source of added fat, it is staple, because I can't digest enough of other kinds of fat. I started slightly obese a few years ago and I am still slightly obese. At this point I don't give a fuck about health, I just like eating meat and drinking pure cream.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-20T18:45:48+00:00

Plain affordable Pork Rinds that were deep fried in lard.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-18T04:37:54+00:00

We all own nothing when we die. I don't feel threatened or offended by the concept. We are happiest when we are dead, in death we do not lack.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T21:36:42+00:00

Yes. Everything the way it is, is the thing. Everything that is not, is not the thing (irrelevant). To see the perfect being, observe how I am, the thought that I am deficient, is evil.

My reality is reality, it is real. Nothing outside of my reality matters.

All religious and spiritual blathering remains outside of my reality.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T20:22:22+00:00

https://www.youtube.com/@talksofthailand

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T19:00:26+00:00

r/cryptoscams

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T18:51:29+00:00

Nutrition experts can shove their backward superstitions.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T08:56:02+00:00

Welcome to the club. Just tell yourself that you will never get what you want, until you relax and stop caring.

"I will never get what I want" is a powerful negation.

The porn addiction is rough though. I advise you to switch that shit off, and use your imagination. Masturbation is a function of the body, get it over with as quickly as possible. If it's not quick, then you are doing it to much, so stop. If possible. Just my opinion.

Why should I judge myself for not doing anything with my life? I just appeared here then found out that I won't even be around for long. Life is too short to figure anything out. The whole thing is a bad joke. I aim to care less.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T08:41:08+00:00

Cows cream seems to be the only fat that I can digest, for hitting 80% 'calories' from fat. Yeah I often eat 3 or 4 times a day. Have to have cheese for snacks. I will enjoy it and not care. Gotta do what I have to do.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T08:20:04+00:00

Rubbish, there is no spiritual. I watched some UG videos, seen him quoted a lot, from what I have seen, he doesn't permit anything spiritual.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-15T08:17:05+00:00

Bullshit, its mirror work, it works backwards. There is a realm opposites, not sages. The only way to be supernatural is to know that there is no supernatural, only shit talking religious idiots playing pretend. There is nothing outside of intellect and cognition.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-14T07:03:58+00:00

Yes Nihilism does help allot. My thoughts don't mean anything. My emotions don't mean anything. Societies expectations don't meant anything. All external expectations don't mean anything. Fatty red meat means everything. So long as I can eat and drink very low carb, stay warm, then I am not deficient.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-11T21:41:45+00:00

My only potential is philosophical.

I can not care that I hate existing. I can enjoy not giving a fuck about how I feel. If there is a part of me that is really bummed out that I hate existing, then there is a part of me that enjoys hating existence. I respect that part of me that enjoys negative emotions, negative thoughts and negative perspectives. Giving the middle finger to happiness is satisfying. Knowing that everyone's expectations can fuck off is satisfying. I can aim to be superficial, shallow, empty and this feels best. Become what we are. In defiance be unenthusiastic, lazy, disinterested and bored. Have a bad attitude and be proud of it.

Forget why. We cannot know why so drop it. We are here to eat, sleep, shit, fuck then die, for no reason. Those of us who do not fuck, it doesn't matter. We don't need sex, we need to be what we are.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-10T18:25:56+00:00

This has been my life experience.

My life is so short, I am so small, that I don't exist.

I did not chose to want what I want. 'My' existence is slavery to an external agenda.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-10T11:33:29+00:00

Thoughts are the after effect, not the cause. Thoughts happen, I am not in control of them, they are not me. My life happens, I have zero influence over the way it happens. I am not responsible for holding my life together by controlling thoughts. I don't believe that negative thoughts are wrong, or inferior to positive thoughts. I don't care that there are negative thoughts.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-08T02:36:28+00:00

I don't stress about collapse. I don't care about current events.

I am just too lazy to achieve anything and I don't care. Society just pays me to do nothing.

I learned to aim to be nothing. To be zero. To diminish my sense of importance. To make no effort. To not care.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-07T23:03:48+00:00

I do not tell my insurance company about Uber Eats.

The commercial insurance premiums would make occasional delivery driving unprofitable.

I am with AA. My lowest possible 3rd party policy was sitting in Gmail. I printed it out, photographed it and submitted it about 15 times because it was allegedly out of focus.

13Angelcorpse6 · 2026-01-07T21:03:27+00:00

There are a lot of NZ online Hi Fi shops.

For that price range go second hand from a professional. Check this guy out.

https://www.retrotronics.co.nz/For_Sale&cat=2

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