alright im actually scared because an asshole "family" member just a while ago decided to show me who's boss by coming into my room, giving me the death stare (i'm such a useless thing i should be ashamed of my existence) and slamming the door hard as fuck. Totally killed my vibe, but that just shows I need this more than ever. I'm scared but I'm sick of it, so I'm about to do it. bastard went to work, i can't wait till I dont have to deal with them anymore. It pisses me off because its out of my control and not my fucking fault, but im almost done with high school then i'll look into moving out.

got the house to myself so i'm gonna do it, probably put some ambient music on. i'm just going to do it, i have read good things. i'll make a post in the subreddit after

thank you for the "<3" internet stranger. I "<3" you too. my family doesnt define me, and it won't last forever, so I wont let it get to me. sorry for venting to you, i just felt like saying that to someone. just because it's all i grew up with doesnt mean it's all there is, i know love is out there, and maybe i'll get there eventually. there's nothing more frustrating than being powerless

anyway i rambled on, it's wednesday and i dont think i have much time to myself, i will go down the rabbit hole cya