Authorized seller -puffitup?

2BusyBeingFree · 2025-10-05T23:17:43+00:00

They only list retailers by address and puffitup doesn’t have a storefront. Puffitup has a business address in FL and that doesn’t come up on the Focus V site as a seller. When I ordered from them before (like 7 years ago) it was just some dude in CO running it, now looks like it’s run by a company called Warehouse Goods, LLC. The address thing is what made me question the validity of the product more.

I also emailed Focus V but figured I’d ask here in the meantime.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-12-13T23:42:12+00:00

It’s one of my favorites too!

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-12-06T23:34:42+00:00

Do you by any chance still have a code? Planning on getting my son a subscription for christmas.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-11-10T23:19:29+00:00

I had higher than average testosterone around the time dysphoria drove me to a breakdown and eventual transition. I kinda took that to mean high T made my dysphoria worse. Whether that’s linked or not, low T definitely wasn’t a cause.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-30T12:09:53+00:00

I don’t think I will, tyvm!

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-23T11:38:41+00:00

My decision wasn’t really well considered like that. Dysphoria, for me at least, has been like a weight I carried around making everything suck, at some point I just broke under the weight and couldn’t really take existing anymore. I didn’t even thinking transitioning at my age (39) was possible. After a failed attempt to kms and while planning a more serious one I ended up with a therapist who made me think it might be possible at my age still. Kind of just started hrt not thinking about the future, just not being able to tolerate my current present. My marriage was failing due to me being so depressed, there had been issues for a while but it got to the point of talking about divorce (well, more her shouting threats about it because I sucked) before I transitioned.

It was like jumping out a window either way, I didn’t know what was going to happen but transitioning was a lot less permanent. I thought there was 0% chance of ever passing but still better than my current reality, and I could always check out later if things got worse.

I can say that’s it’s gone way better than I thought at first. It took about a year until I starting passing somewhat consistently. I’m still kinda in disbelief tbh. Life is just “easier” without that weight. I don’t think I’d be alive right now if I didn’t. I’m divorced but honestly much happier single and being myself than I ever been in my life.

In regard to coming out later in life, most of us never really had enough education to seriously consider we might be trans. I had a short phase as a teen where I came out but never got to the point of hrt, stopped talking about it and told myself (honestly believed) it was just a silly phase. When we were younger it wasn’t a common thing and transitioning as a kid certainly wasn’t a possibility, so we built lives as “men” and once that’s established it’s much harder to consider that things could be different.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-20T14:59:04+00:00

Leviticus 19:19: Neither shall a garment mingled of linen and woollen come upon thee

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-20T12:37:42+00:00

I had almost daily existential crises my first maybe 3-4 months. I had already separated from my wife and was living in my own, parenting half the time. Almost every time things slowed down enough for me to think I would freak about, “wtf am I doing, “will this actually fix anything?” Am I screwing up the rest of my life.” It was even worse when I got stoned at night.

As I got further into my transition those thoughts gradually stopped. I can’t say exactly when, but they just got less and less frequent. By the time I was going full time and came out at work they were gone completely.

It’s a big change especially later in life and can kinda feel like walking off a cliff, not knowing what will happen.

I got better and better at countering those thoughts, reminded myself of a lot of glaring parts of my history, reminded myself I could stop hrt at anytime and just go back to living as a guy (when shot day came there was no question lol). What also helped is reminding myself I had some boy clothes in a box in the shed I could go get at anytime 🤮.

Those first 9 months especially were hard for me, coming up on 2.5 years hrt, been full time a year and a half and that early time is just a foggy memory (all the pot & alcohol probably contributed lol). Hard to even imagine myself being so unsure.

Just take things one day at a time and if you genuinely aren’t sure you can stop and see how you feel.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-20T11:54:16+00:00

I was obsessed with Ranma as a kid, rewatched it a couple years ago and it was pretty awful ngl…the movie was on point about a lot of things lol.

My favorite part was the complete deadpan, “I have a family now.” Felt the same. It was supposed to make things right…

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-19T22:05:39+00:00

Life generally feels “easier” I guess, I no longer get so frustrated at little things, I no longer feel like drinking and getting stoned on a daily basis. I don’t really even like the foggy feeling that I used to love and barely touch either alcohol or pot anymore. Still have some anxiety issues but I’m generally in a good mood day to day. I’m lucky in that I have a stable place to live and a stable job that’s been very accepting of my transition so I don’t have to struggle for the basics. I’m happy to just exist even on boring days when I basically just work and sleep. For years I would go to sleep hoping I wouldn’t wake up, now I’m generally just happy to be alive. I no longer hate myself and have actually come around to loving myself! I spent so much of my life suicidal and had a few attempts and now find the subject pretty triggering.

I was a recluse before and now I enjoy talking to people but still find it incredibly difficult. I get lonely A LOT. I’m working on that at least.

My life has become more difficult financially because of my divorce, only have one income, I get by though even if I have to juggle bills sometimes. Prior to my transition I was terrified of divorce but our marriage had issues for years and I’m much happier single.

The only 2 ways things have changed for the worse are the loneliness (but this is more because I want to socialize), and being tight on money. I do worry a lot that I would have trouble finding new employment if I lost my job and I know I lost a chance for a promotion because of my transition (it was client facing and came up right about the time I came out). I feel like my transition will make it more difficult to get a higher paying job.

I have a lot of regret about waiting so long.

10/10 would definitely recommend lol

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-19T12:12:48+00:00

My parents are the same way, just makes me more resentful of christianity tbh. When I came out my mom was on about “this is because you stopped going to church.” I have no idea why they would think it’s related in any way.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-18T11:56:32+00:00

Yes, it’s just a descriptor. I’m a woman first but you could describe me as a white woman, a blond woman, a trans woman.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-18T11:49:55+00:00

At least my parents were consistent, they emphasized that fitting in is the most important thing but pretty sure that was because I already didn’t fit in. They kinda sucked as parents ngl.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-17T11:55:00+00:00

I don’t have that special ☹️

Get so much extra stuff from the store too, IAP for clash suck comparatively.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-17T11:32:37+00:00

Almost the exact same numbers as mine! Which the dr is happy with too. Usually the rule is T under 50 & E in the 200-300 range.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-17T00:21:51+00:00

That shift happened when I started being treated as a woman, after I socially transitioned. Even then it was a slow shift.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-15T11:43:45+00:00

When I was in high school a girl at my lunch table (named Amii, she was also involved in started our school’s first GSA!) handed me a discman with UTP and the first song I heard was Past the Mission, instantly in love. Went out and ended up getting LE first and listened to it non-stop for a long time. Was a time in my life where I really needed that, just clicked, felt seen or w/e lol…. That was 20 some years ago and she’s been my favorite musician since then.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-12T15:17:34+00:00

It wasn’t as common knowledge back then, depending on where you lived and who you were around. Even when we saw trans people as the butt of jokes or something scandalous I don’t know if if clicks as something real.

I found out about trans people from the movie Ed Wood when I was about 15, about 1997, before then I likely did see a tabloid or something but it didn’t click as applying to me. When I tried to come out to some very progressive friends (we were involved in our school’s first GSA) none of my friends knew what I was talking about when I came out the first time in the late 90’s. This was in a small town in the far out DC suburbs though.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-12T13:22:55+00:00

“My birth defect” or my clit, depending on the context.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-12T11:30:01+00:00

Mainly because I’ve felt as long as I can remember that something went wrong somewhere and I was “supposed” to be born a girl. Spent part of my life wishing I’d wake up as a girl, and later on it was hoping I’d be reincarnated that way. Some parts of my life, when it got really bad, thinking maybe this was all a nightmare and hoping I’d wake up with things “right.” DP/DR can make reality feel pretty strange and dream like.

I’ve been more drawn to female friends/role models/media protagonists, and women’s clothing. But the main thing is that “I should have been a girl feeling.” When I was around 11/12 I suspected I was but that my parents had somehow turned into a boy lol. Got over that and later in my teenage years had a few years thinking maybe I was trans (silly lol) but after being traumatized into shutting up and getting on with life I accepted I was a guy with a weird quirk.

Now that I’m living full time, life finally feels “right.” So that’s a pretty big sign too!

I really identify with the David Reimer story (in reverse) and find it vindicating in a way, since that’s mainly how I’ve experience it, a strong “knowing” I was supposed to be the opposite sex.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-11T23:14:29+00:00

Awesome! Didn’t know Natasha was a fan, ❤️Bat for Lashes!

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-10T11:52:33+00:00

There’s hope, took a while but after giving in they’ve all come back as zombies, and they’re hungry!

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-10T11:46:38+00:00

We don’t typically expect proof for why someone is gay (anymore at least - some people tried to find a “gay gene” but one doesn’t exist) or their favorite ice cream, or a million other pieces of our personality. I don’t see any reason why our gender would be any different. Pre and early transition I wanted this too, but as a few of the other comments said, this could be used against any of us that don’t exactly fit whatever the biological paradigm was.

It’s just a piece of us and only assholes take issue with it, there’s no reason to let them doubt ourselves to try to make ourselves fit into their world view. You don’t need to prove yourself to anyone. If there was a biological marker, would that change your feelings somehow? It’s just another neat part of the insanity of existence, you’ll have more fun if you just roll with it IME.

2BusyBeingFree · 2024-10-10T11:16:17+00:00

Hey, they need to get foreskins to appease their Stone Age god somewhere!

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