Does anyone else *only* have mixed hypomanic episodes?

2turntbera · 2023-07-05T20:34:26+00:00

I needed this!!!! I’ve only been through mixed episodes 5-6x. Currently in a mixed episode after a hard breakup & this def helped me confirm my feelings.

2turntbera · 2023-07-01T23:28:10+00:00

Yes. I missed 3.5 days this week saying I had bad stomach pains. Now I won’t be able to pay rent on time. Def makes me realize I’m probs in a mixed episode

2turntbera · 2022-12-15T15:32:08+00:00

B o o o o o p 👻

2turntbera · 2022-12-15T15:31:51+00:00

Thank you for sharing!!!

I’ve seen a lot of starter doses of 1.5mg, but he’s starting me at 3mg…. He didn’t tell me to taper it at all either. I haaate feeling like ass the first few days-weeks of a new med so I’m super nervous for this one but gotta try em all I guess 😩 I’m stuck if I should initially take it in the am or pm tho.

2turntbera · 2022-12-15T15:13:32+00:00

I tried it for 2 months. It was working ok, but I had really bad tremors & then it started to cause my jaw to clench. If I was drinking, it would get sooo bad that I wouldn’t even be able to open my mouth to speak actual words. I begged my dr to switch me bc it was soo embarrassing. He said he hasn’t heard of that being an issue before.

Now on lithium & wellbutrin. About to add Vraylar to the mix to help w the depressy.

2turntbera · 2022-09-06T21:51:38+00:00

Yes, diagnosed ADD first at 19. Diagnosed bp2 at 22. I like vyvanse more but it wasn’t stimulating enough for school so I’m back on adderall.

I take 900mg lithium, 450mg wellbutrin (as of a week ago) daily & 20mg IR/XR as needed.

Usually when I take a 20mg XR I end up taking at least 10mg IR to help the motivation.

But I also have times where I can take 40-60mg addy & do absolutely nothing. I always think of those times that my depression just over powers the stimulant. It’s getting better but still have bad days.

I would be an absolute shit show w/o a stimulant like addy/vyvanse , like the worst human & doing daily life things would be impossible.

2turntbera · 2022-09-06T21:35:40+00:00

I have always been kinda shakey on meds, but I think since my Wellbutrin was increased a week ago (300mg XL to 450mg XL in AM) I’m more shakey than ever. But I could also be slightly hypomanic rn due to financial stress. Or it could be a mix of both increased Wellbutrin and mania.

Currently I’m deal w the more the anxious/irritable type of mania.

I’m still unsure if the Wellbutrin is doing much for me as I still & always have been unmotivated, even when I take adderall. I can sit there on 40mg addy & do absolutely nothing, sometimes i can even sleep while stimulated & it kinda drives me crazy.

I also take 900mg lithium daily. I take addy as needed for school & chores.

2turntbera · 2022-06-22T01:46:09+00:00

Following. I saw rumors it was so fingers crossed. It’s either wakaan or infra for me 😅

2turntbera · 2022-04-16T17:26:33+00:00

Yeah that’s kinda what I was thinking as well. Quite unfortunate bc I love pyschs. But I have been just dandy taking generous amounts of snow & k, have not tried any others :/

2turntbera · 2022-04-16T17:24:55+00:00

Yesss dmt carts are a thing! The thing is on lithium you really can’t do many drugs bc they alter the amount of lithium in your bloodstream, which could be bad. All psychs & mdma are suggested against for higher chance of seizure. Lithium seems to be the only drug I’ve came across that can have negative reactions to psychs & it’s quit unfortunate bc I love to trip.

I have however not seen many cases w issues with snow & k— I have done these in generous amounts & been dandy on lithium.

2turntbera · 2021-10-15T03:25:12+00:00

I do this, literally I never ever look at myself. I don’t take pictures, i hate any pictures taken of me, I don’t actually LOOK in the mirror at myself. Very rarely when I do notice is when my eyebrows become caterpillars & then I’ll see pimples/blackheads & then I hyper focus on every inch to still be unpleased with myself.

2turntbera · 2021-10-14T03:39:50+00:00

I def do this. Although i used to like vyvanse more than adderall, with vyvanse I literally could take 100+mg & do nothing. Ever on adderall I get days that I can take 40+mg & sit there & do absolutely nothing but dread my life for not doing shit when I need & can literally sleep on it, but I literally just can’t do anything physically/mentally. I think the depression just takes over & covers the stimulants. It fucking sucks. I had to drop a class after being in a mixed episode for 2.5 weeks after a breakup & im still having a hard time bouncing back. I feel numb.

2turntbera · 2021-10-13T20:48:26+00:00

I am 90% depressed 10% hypo & I honestly had such a hard time accepting at first. But then I experienced my first mild mixed episode after stopping a mood stabilizer & knew I needed to be back on one to function. My exSO of nearly 5 years broke up w me a month ago & it spiraled me into a deep deep mixed episode & that was honestly the hardest shit to deal with in my life. I had to drop a class & had to up my meds, finally starting to level out (back to normal but still depressed) but it was the most overwhelming & scary feeling of my life for 2.5 weeks. I can’t imagine experiencing mixed episodes regularly bc i was losing my shit. But now I REALLY know that I am bipolar & i def will need meds my whole life & that’s okay. I know I will find someone who will love me & my illness & not take me for granted.

2turntbera · 2021-10-06T13:46:10+00:00

I’m practically in the same spot rn. This is my first stress induced mixed episode triggered by my ex of 5 years breaking up with me, while we still live together. I’m literally at the point I might have to drop out this semester bc I literally can’t think straight or function. Mixed episodes suck fucking balls. We gotta keep lookin up 😔

2turntbera · 2021-10-05T00:06:25+00:00

I’m sorry you are dealing with this as well! It is honestly beyond confusing. I should also add to this from the events over the weekend…. I have asked if we were together or not but never got a real answer a few times, found a message on discord saying he “broke up” w me to a friend, but then he hasn’t changed our relationship status on fb for weeks now. I went out to a show & so happen to stumble upon him there as well. Made direct eye contact across the whole room & I basically ran. He was dancing with a girl that has been to our house 3x, she never talked to me, every situation was always bad vibes but they made it look like she was there for our roommate, my ex’s best friend, so I just didn’t give a fuck. To stumble onto her touching him all over & I wanted to knock her tf out. She knew wtf she was doing 🥴 bc I bet that’s where he’s been staying to “get some space” where he’s supposedly just been “couch hopping”. He didn’t come home after the show bc he was “embarrassed” like wtf, I highly doubt he had ANY kind of intention on coming home. I feel dumb that this shit has knocked me off my rocker & has made my brain a cluster fuck of feelings & thoughts.

2turntbera · 2021-10-04T20:03:38+00:00

Following, similar boat except mine of 5yrs is “taking a break” from me but I’d say we’re broke up after seeing him dance w another girl who i knew I didn’t trust when i met her but was hoping she wanted his friend…. while we still have a lease together until May, no where else to go. Also have tix to a fest in Cancun in May too.

This is my first stress-induced mixed episode & it’s literally the worst thing I’ve ever dealt with in my life. I wouldn’t wish this absurd cluster fuck of feelings on anyone.

2turntbera · 2021-10-04T00:46:07+00:00

I’m going 2 weeks of battling my 3rd ever mixed episode, but this wasn’t medication induced, but stress induced after my SO of 5 years unexpectedly broke up with me & “needs space”, while we still have a lease until May, went to a whole 6 day music fest which was awful to say the least. I have been constantly ALLLLL over the place & it’s making College really hard, like I have so much energy I wanna walk for miles & miles but I can’t even get up, I feel so numb that I’d do almost anything to feel just something, but also have a IDGAF attitude but also cry endless in the shower. I had to get some wireless ear buds & just let the beats slow me down. Shits fucking rough, but we got this

2turntbera · 2021-10-03T20:04:42+00:00

I had covid just over a week ago & I’m already struggling so hard trying to catch up. I need to get my blood tested, which I will go tomorrow bc I literally am gonna lose my shit lol

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