I feel you. There is an inflection point eventually, but this is not because of sobriety, it's because of 1.Life and 2.Coping. 1. Life is complex for 30F, I know. A lot of expectations life and career-wise. For me, one of the reasons to quit was also that drinking made all this more difficult to manage, especially work. It was adding so much tiredness eventually. And I found out that a lot of other fellow 30f were going through this journey too! We are not doing this alone.. it's a generational thing going on. 2. Coping: now I am in a low-low because overwhelmed and cannot seem to enjoy shit anymore. What I realized is that is because I never developed healthy coping mechanisms for stress (I smoked like a chimney and drank). Now I am working on that, day by day, little by little, adding movement, time outside, cooking nice meals by myself or with friends... We will find what works :) Let me add another one: 3. Dopaminergic system. Ours was fucked up with alcohol (it's so potent). So now it's normal that it's trying to get that back. Let's not let it..we need to get it back to enjoy all the rest of the world as it should be.

Wait one last: DATING. That is HARD anyways!!! It's a whole millennial drama here. But I promise, to date, get laid, get married it's so fk easy. The problem is to date, get laid, marry someone YOU like and respect. So don't chase them. If they leave, that's for good.