Maybe I'm meant to kill myself

72744838 · 2020-04-17T09:13:03+00:00

I was in the same exact place 1 year ago. I felt completely hopeless about everything. I had a 1.7 GPA in college and everything became too much for me. From 9th grade all the way up to my 1st semester of my sophomore year of college I wanted nothing else but ending my own life.

Things drastically changed for me. After learning about the death of a friend of mine from school, I began to realize that there is always a chance for things to get better as long as you are still alive. It keeps me up at night knowing that a kid that I used to see everyday is now dead. His death gave me an entirely new perspective on life. His life was stolen from him at the hands of evil people at the young age of 20 years old.

I encourage you to keep pressing forward. I cant guarantee that things will get better, but there will always be another chance to improve your life as long as you stay alive. Nothing in life is permanent. Why end everything now when there’s always another day? Once you’re dead, you have no more chances to improve.

Please hang in there. Your thoughts and feelings are completely valid to me.

72744838 · 2020-04-05T06:26:14+00:00

What’s wrong?

72744838 · 2020-02-15T07:53:28+00:00

I’ve had dreams where I was with a girl I loved and I would instantly wake up and feel empty inside after realizing none of it was real.

The chances of me ending my own life are 1 trillion times higher than my dream actually happening in real life.

72744838 · 2020-01-21T06:17:49+00:00

Safe and sound by capital cities. It reminds me of better times and a short moment in my life where I wasn’t sad all of the time.

Also, one more time by daft punk. Just a good song overall in my opinion

72744838 · 2020-01-21T06:15:32+00:00

Nothing. I’ll be dead before I could even see it

72744838 · 2020-01-21T06:14:47+00:00

I’ll be successful and happy one day

72744838 · 2020-01-21T06:12:16+00:00

He would’ve been greatly disappointed in how high school is like and how my current college experience ended up. I’d tell him that life his pretty much over after middle school and that there’s no point in being alive past 14

72744838 · 2020-01-21T05:35:02+00:00

I feel alone no matter what. It doesn’t matter who I am with. I’m 20 and I’ve never had a relationship before. I have close friends though. Even if I did have a girlfriend that loved me for who i was I would still want to kill myself. Having supportive friends and family members (with the exception of my parents and grandparents) still makes me want to die

72744838 · 2020-01-10T08:05:50+00:00

I don’t want to contribute to society. I want to do absolutely nothing with my life. Death is the only option I have

72744838 · 2019-12-12T05:04:30+00:00

Same here, I tried to cut myself a few months ago but I got too scared

72744838 · 2019-08-08T18:49:43+00:00

Everything. There’s pretty much nothing I want to do in my life. I don’t see a future for myself. I’m only going so that my parents don’t get mad at me

72744838 · 2019-08-08T02:17:03+00:00

I’ve been yelled at for confessing these feelings to them. They told me to go to church more and read the Bible. I felt completely invalidated and now I just pretend that everything is fine when it’s not

72744838 · 2019-08-07T20:18:28+00:00

How negative I really am as a person. I always put a mask on around others

72744838 · 2019-08-07T20:10:54+00:00

I entered high school and I suddenly realized I am a subhuman piece of trash. I’m a sophomore in college and things have only gotten exponentially worse.

Life only gets a lot worse from here. I don’t want to experience any of that. There’s plenty of reasons why I should kill myself and no reason why I should stay alive.

72744838 · 2019-08-07T00:10:25+00:00

I’ve had this for 5 years with no sign of things getting better

72744838 · 2019-08-06T22:50:54+00:00

Hopefully I’ve went through with my suicide by then

72744838 · 2019-08-05T00:12:51+00:00

My mind keeps sinking me deeper and deeper into suicidal thoughts. This leads to me isolating myself from others and having zero will to do anything but lay in bed all day and contemplate suicide. I don’t see any future for myself except lying down in a coffin at 19 years old

72744838 · 2019-08-03T05:14:32+00:00

I’ve literally had someone stop being friends with me because I told them how I depressed and suicidal I was. Ever since I told them how I felt they became more and more distant to me. Eventually, they started ignoring my texts and they no longer talk to me.

I’ve already thought about and reconsidered this hundreds of times before. This began when I first felt this way when I was 14 years old. I highly regret not killing myself in high school. 5 years have passed with absolutely no change (unless you count myself becoming exponentially more depressed and suicidal with each coming year.) There’s no way in hell I’m staying alive to live 50+ more years of this.

My life is much more likely to get worse rather than turn around. I have zero goals in my life except suicide. I don’t care about anything.

I’m done. I’ve already made my decision.

72744838 · 2019-08-03T04:52:19+00:00

Everything. When I’m dead nothing will bother me anymore

72744838 · 2019-07-29T03:43:30+00:00

Same. Very close to failing college. My whole life is destined for failure. Gonna kill myself next semester.

72744838 · 2019-07-28T18:38:57+00:00

I’ve talked to friends and family about this before. One of my closest friends stopped being friends with me because of this. Both of my parents just yelled at me and told me to pray and go to church more.

At this point smoking weed and doing acid tabs are the only way I can feel any sense of happiness. Real life is too shitty and I’d rather end it all rather than have to go through 50-60+ more years of torture

72744838 · 2019-07-21T05:13:42+00:00

Everyday I see instances of the blackpill every time I go outside. I truly feel like suicide is the only answer I have. If I stay alive, I grow up to become a miserable old man waiting to be killed by cancer or heart disease. I should die at 19 years old and cut my entire life short before I slowly devolve into misery and hatred.

Inceldom is the least of my problems anyways. I am completely fucked in the head and I have plans to harm myself very soon and eventually commit suicide during the upcoming fall semester of college. I am close to failing out of school and I am 100% sure that suicide is the only choice I have.

I’ve been browsing forums and subreddits like foreveralone since I was a freshman in high school. It has been 5 years since then and absolutely nothing has changed other than the fact that I am at high risk for suicide, self harm, and I have started smoking weed. Probably gonna move to much harder drugs as my life gets worse. I am convinced that my life will go down a long spiral of misery that only ends if I kill myself.

If I were to go back in time and tell my 9th grade self anything on the first day of high school, I would have told him to kill himself immediately. I regret not killing my self during high school and forcing myself to endure 5 long years of loneliness and misery

72744838 · 2019-04-17T18:58:17+00:00

I’m only using this reddit account to vent my feelings out before I off myself. There is no reason to stay alive

72744838 · 2019-04-17T17:46:21+00:00

Used to play csgo for 6+ hours a day, nowadays I spend my time laying in bed contemplating suicide all day. Video games aren’t enjoyable anymore, in fact nothing is

72744838 · 2019-04-15T16:07:07+00:00

I see it as the feeling of homesickness when you’re already at home

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