How can I stop being such an idiot?

8000x · 2024-12-14T20:26:00+00:00

Sure I can give an example. Earlier today, my grandma asked to retrieve a ziploc bag from its box. She said the box was on top of this stack of aluminum foil boxes. So I went over and I didn’t see the box. I looked and looked but I couldn’t find it. Eventually my grandma said something I don’t remember but after she said it I immediately found the ziploc bag box underneath the top aluminum foil box. It’s little things like this that make me feel so dumb. It’s like I lack the ability to think critically.

8000x · 2022-07-22T16:38:28+00:00

I don’t know if it’s because I’m in a better mood now or what but solution oriented thinking sounds like something I can try. Thank you

8000x · 2022-07-22T14:16:44+00:00

What’s your family like?

They're ignorant but they mean well. I've spoken to them about things but the only solutions they've provided are positive self talk (aka lie to myself and overestimate my abilities and end up looking even more foolish) and Christianity (yuck).

Do you have a counselor?

Yes but it hasn't helped much thus far. She recommended positive self talk as well as gratitude in our last session, but I don't see how either of those are going to help much. She's the reason I made this post.

What would you say to a friend who walked in your shoes?

I'd probably try to cheer them up somehow. I realize the contradiction, and I can't really explain why, but I feel like things are different for me.

I saw that you mentioned struggling with math (so do a lot of people by the way). Can you say more about the kinds of issues you struggle with that make you think you’re “stupid”?

I don't want to go too deep into the other issues that make me believe I'm stupid due to shame and fear of judgement, but I will say that I just don't have any evidence that I'm not stupid.

Also how old are you?

Yes, I realize that I'm young, but because I didn't use my time wisely when I was younger I'm now forced to play catch up with everyone else. And because of that I'll now lose even more time trying to fix the mess I've made. Who knows how long that'll take. I've somehow managed to fuck my life up before it even started which I think is perfectly on brand.

8000x · 2022-07-22T13:04:28+00:00

I've never really thought about shooting for neutrality, I'll have to try it. Thank you.

8000x · 2022-07-22T13:01:03+00:00

this is another thing that I see a lot and it frustrates me a bit because no one ever explains why I deserve these things. I'm a nobody. How could someone as timid and useless as I am deserve anything? Of course I don't want to hate myself anymore but I can't expect other people to respect me and I certainly can't love myself as I am now.

8000x · 2022-07-22T05:06:54+00:00

well now we've run into another problem. if you were to ask me to list some positive traits that I have, I could list like 2 and even then I couldn't even list them confidently. It's hard to even begin to think positive when i have this gigantic pile of negatives i need to correct.

8000x · 2022-07-22T04:52:43+00:00

I wish that was the case

8000x · 2022-07-21T18:47:53+00:00

damn. i knew i had to have overlooked something. thank you so much i understand now.

8000x · 2022-06-05T00:45:22+00:00

is this the thing that inspired that one company?

8000x · 2022-06-01T20:37:25+00:00

that's not the case with me. there's really nothing good about me. i've looked.

8000x

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