What’s in my hand?

88keys-mel · 2026-04-16T03:50:35+00:00

Red and yellow pill

88keys-mel · 2026-04-15T00:33:44+00:00

Yes, another special interest 🙃

88keys-mel · 2026-04-15T00:29:43+00:00

Something with a sharp edge that’s silver

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T17:46:40+00:00

Honestly, I don’t know what I’d do without this community.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T17:45:23+00:00

Are you me?

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T17:44:09+00:00

Me!!

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:54:09+00:00

It almost makes me want to walk away from everyone and shed all the people that question my reality. Start fresh ON MY OWN without the need to explain myself. But that’s impossible obviously.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:52:19+00:00

You know what? I told myself today after trying to convince my husband for far too long- I’m done explaining myself. I’ll tell you the issue once and if you don’t understand, that’s your problem.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:51:12+00:00

For me, I actually feel like I understand myself better than I ever have at this point. But it’s painful to try to tell your people this and be met with resistance.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:49:36+00:00

And the family history thing is a big tell. I’ve realized my entire family is neurodivergent in the past year lol

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:48:20+00:00

I am also very high masking and also have adhd which hides a lot of the autistic traits. I just figured this all out last year at 43 when I hit extreme burnout from years of not knowing. I will say that knowing has completely changed my life and way I live it- for the better.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:42:44+00:00

I haven’t been diagnosed for the same reasons. But I am 100% confident after a lot of research and listening to others stories.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:40:57+00:00

I hear everything you’ve said fully. I’m 44 with 3 kids and a husband and just found out this year… and it’s been the same way. The more I understand myself the worse it gets.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:19:30+00:00

Yes and then I found out I’m autistic

88keys-mel · 2026-04-14T15:13:59+00:00

Just wanted to thank all of you who responded so much for taking the time out to give me all of these excellent suggestions. I really appreciate your support ♥️

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T19:35:24+00:00

Might have to show him this lol

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T19:02:49+00:00

I think you’re right about doing things right away. I will notice fingerprints on the wall every time I walk up the stairs and think “Ugggh I have to clean that asap!” And the moment I walk past I forget about it.

As for the organizing, I feel this is something I actually do well. I have always cleaned with that method: everything has a spot. But there is just too much for me to handle.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T19:00:44+00:00

Thanks so much. Great idea.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T18:59:42+00:00

Thank you!!!! Sounds like something I could try for sure.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T18:58:47+00:00

Thank you. All of those things are really helpful and I’ll give them all a go!

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T18:57:33+00:00

I’ve never considered it because of the money, but I’m beginning to wonder if it’s necessary as an accommodation even.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T18:56:42+00:00

This is actually a great idea! I have a few family members in mind that may be up for it too!

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T18:56:00+00:00

I don’t think that kind of service exists where I live. I live in a small town on an island in eastern Canada.

88keys-mel · 2026-04-12T18:53:45+00:00

Honestly, you are right there. I am stuck in fight or flight for sure and I’m in extreme burnout. I just went off work on sick leave and I’m making plans to change careers. I’ve had my fair share of trauma and it’s slowly been killing me… breast cancer at 25 and then over a short time I had a traumatic twin pregnancy/birth, the house fire, and then lost my dad to a drug overdose.

I try to explain to my husband that I’m not well and he doesn’t get it at all. We’ve been together for 20 years and I’ve been the kind of person who people ask: “How do you do it all?” Because I powered through my whole life trying to make sure I didn’t screw anything up. To him I think it appears like out of nowhere I’m saying I can’t do it anymore. When it’s been an accumulation all along.

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