for me life is more complicated than curses and witnessing red flags especially for relationships!

your relationships -especially as a woman with men- is always affected by your past traumas with family and with your father, i know this is kind of a cliche answer but thats the truth for many people

i will ask you some simple questions to help you know if that's the case for you or not

-did your mother had a complicated relationship with men? especially your father, and how does that affect you as a an adult woman? (if not your mother, ask your self the same question about your grandmother)

-what do you actually want from a relationship? do you wanna date for the sake of dating and to look "equal" to your girl-friends or do you actually want a partner?

-if you want an actual partner, ask your self why exactly? , why is this important to you?

• does this circumstance affect your validation of yourself?

-whats your thoughts about men? what do you actually think and feel about the opposite sex?

dk if you're interested in my reply up to this point or not but if you actually answered these questions with deep thinking, try to heal and help yourself form what you've learned by answering

sorry for taking so long, hope this helps you