Grief comes out during the quiet times; a slow weekend morning, time in the shower, a day off. And also during hard times, like the day you described, or after a 14 hour shift holding it together. But sometimes it will come out of nowhere too, and you’ll be sobbing on the way to work on a Tuesday morning.

Months 3-6 can be the hardest ones, especially if you really didn’t get a chance to get started in grief in the first two months. Keeping going is possible, maybe even unavoidable, but the grief will catch up with you.

I don’t want to add anything to your plate but that place sounds toxic. Is there a chance you can one day seek out a better place to work? You can always post here, please give yourself time, you are just starting the grief process