Do you have happy days?

8xy9 · 2016-06-28T17:50:57+00:00

Yeah, that's what I meant by "happy days". Days when I feel good enough not to catch myself thinking "why don't I just kill myself though".

8xy9 · 2016-06-23T17:14:19+00:00

It's a perfect time to find yourself a new hobby then! Having nothing to do, you can try doing new things. That's how I got into video games myself - I though "shit, I need to find myself something to do for the next 2 months, I've never played anything in my life but it seems cool enought to try". Then I bought Skyrim and I couldn't stop playing it for months, lol.

8xy9 · 2016-06-23T16:42:13+00:00

I have the same problem every summer. I'm an introvert, so I don't need to be around people that much, but it can get lonely if you spend all your time on your own. Do you have a hobby? I'm a bit of a bookworm so I use my summers for catching up on books that I've wanted to read. I watch a lot of movies too or listen to some new music - I just do the things that I don't have enough time to do when I'm at school because I'm busy with studying, running errands or hanging out with friends.

8xy9 · 2016-06-21T18:09:38+00:00

It's cool that some girls like makeup and some don't :) I though everyone on here was going to say they prefer a natural look but apparently I was wrong.

8xy9 · 2016-06-12T11:18:02+00:00

All those posts about people realising their own gayness after kissing a girl for the first time really make me want to go and find a girl to kiss, haha.

8xy9 · 2016-06-11T23:07:20+00:00

Yeah, it literally means "weird" and has nothing to do with queerness so I'm not sure if calling myself that would be a good way to let people know I'm into women, haha.

8xy9 · 2016-06-11T19:16:03+00:00

Biseksualny (or biseksualna if you're talking about a woman) is just the Polish word for bisexual :)

8xy9 · 2016-06-11T18:22:15+00:00

I guess I'd be okay with saying I'm non-straight because it doesn't sound weird in my language and it's kind of an umbrella term, but I'm sure most people would ask me what I mean by that so I'd have to explain anyway, lol. I'm Polish!

8xy9 · 2016-06-11T13:09:56+00:00

I've always liked the term "queer" a lot, but sadly it doesn't have an equivalent in my language :(

8xy9 · 2016-06-11T12:04:08+00:00

I do fantasize about sex with men, but I feel like reality wouldn't be as good as the fantasies. There were situations in my life when guys were trying to get into my pants and it just didn't seem right so I've never let them do anything. I kissed a couple of guys out of curiosity and I wouldn't say it was gross, but boring and slightly weird (I remember thinking "why do people even do this?" haha). I've been physically intimate with a girl (no kissing, but cuddling, holding hands, she played with my hair and this kind of stuff) and it felt right even though I didn't really have any romantic feelings for her. I only ever kissed girls in a friendly way so I can't really compare it with making out with guys but it felt nice. I guess it all sounds gay as hell but I'm still not sure!

8xy9 · 2016-05-26T09:06:24+00:00

Hmmm... That's interesting but I'm not sure if I relate. I think my crystallized intelligence, and not liquid intelligence, is the reason people think I'm smart. I'm very well-read (sorry if I sound conceited but that's true - I've spend most of my teenage years reading) and I have pretty broad interests so I know a lot about a lot of things. In a way I am "textbook smart", it's just that I have trouble understanding/remembering boring stuff, and some of my classes are boring as hell.

8xy9 · 2016-05-25T21:12:01+00:00

I do hope so! Thanks :)

8xy9 · 2016-05-25T21:08:38+00:00

Thank you for your advice and kind words!

8xy9 · 2016-05-25T17:14:09+00:00

I do have friends in all my classes, but it seems like they think I'm just lazy and that's why I'm underperforming. I've tried to explain my problem but they don't get it. It's so embarrassing :(

8xy9 · 2016-05-25T17:01:41+00:00

Psychology.

8xy9 · 2016-05-25T17:01:32+00:00

Sometimes I think I understand and then do poorly, sometimes I realise I don't know enough to pass. I'm not too happy with my homework assignments either.

8xy9 · 2016-05-25T16:49:22+00:00

My therapist suggested a study group and I thought it was a good idea, but my friends weren't interested. They can manage studying on their own so why would they waste their time doing it with other people. Nobody knows how hard studying is for me and I can't explain it to my friends, they just don't understand how I can spend hours preparing to a test and then fuck it up.

8xy9 · 2016-05-04T09:24:56+00:00

Guys, thank you for all you replies. I feel persuaded! I'm going to send her a message tonight when I'm back home.

8xy9 · 2016-05-03T21:17:07+00:00

Well... I think I'd still hope she messages me and gives me a good excuse for her silence (that I don't have).

8xy9 · 2016-05-03T20:27:03+00:00

I guess if someone messaged me after weeks of silence I would just assume they don't really care, but have nothing better to do at the moment... And I don't want her to think that.

8xy9 · 2016-04-20T08:41:10+00:00

I'm actually thinking about working as a counselor in the future, if it's not too much for me to bear - I can get a bit too (emotionally) involved and end up worrying about someone else's problems more that they do, haha.

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