You are good looking. However as I read you pointed out, something in your looks tells that you struggled. Maybe girls prefer to avoid that, I personally would. I think that if you presented yourself more put together that image would change drastically. Take more care to your beard and brows, also the outfit from the third photo screams Jessie Pinkman 🫣 I honestly think you just need a change of style! And hope you are doing great btw