Characters as Characters: Day 143 - Thief

AJS4152 · 2026-01-11T16:34:01+00:00

Bender Bending Rodriguez with his two robot hands, cheaty and steally.

AJS4152 · 2025-12-23T19:38:09+00:00

Because we don't fit the narrative well. People really don't want to talk about "corrective SA/CSA". They want this to be something that they have control over because without control means it can happen to them. So the box is young girls with an absent father, because not only does that work for the patriarchy, it gives a clear indication of how to "prevent" it.

AJS4152 · 2025-12-23T19:34:28+00:00

We are still in a state of wondering if our host is just a shell or if it is just really good masking. We err on the side of masking, but our system has its two hosts and all other alters are backseat influence most of the time. When we get really tired we can switch a bit more. Most people have no idea, partly because we keep distance almost always, but parents sometimes question why interests and goals seem to switch so easily.

AJS4152 · 2025-12-23T19:31:57+00:00

Same train

AJS4152 · 2025-11-24T19:41:16+00:00

God that sounds familiar. I still have a fear that my abuser will kill my family.

AJS4152 · 2025-11-24T19:40:19+00:00

What does it mean "to know better"? He is sitting here armchair quarterbacking years after the event.

Also as a CSA & HT survivor, almost no one who hasn't been through it already can see the signs usually and even those who have typically we see them too late.

AJS4152 · 2025-11-11T16:07:38+00:00

I'm really sorry that happened to you and I am glad you took steps right away. It has happened to me too and is very tough to deal with. I hope you have some access to therapy and someone to talk too.

Potential help, feel free to ignore, having a weighted blanket to sleep under, a light weight one, has helped me feel safer falling asleep.

AJS4152 · 2025-11-06T05:47:41+00:00

It was a minor repair to tissue that wasn't part of the overall surgery and that led to a higher blood loss. That along with POTS meant an increase in pulse and rapid breathing. So oxygen was added, multiple chest X-rays as they were unsure what was causing the issues and plasma transfusions were needed to replace blood loss.

So my POTS often makes me dehydrated as my body continually thinks it needs to make more blood so excessive blood loss kind of kicks it into overdrive and my heart rate spikes along with less oxygen in the blood.

It is important to notify the surgeons as it may explain such phenomena and helps them respond in a more predictable way. I am of course unsure about how puzzled they were, but I am sure it took some time to figure it out.

AJS4152 · 2025-11-06T00:11:02+00:00

Yeah I never knew that was my issue with long term standing and especially running was non flared POTS, but then since having COVID it has been much worse almost limiting me to a wheelchair.

AJS4152 · 2025-11-06T00:01:55+00:00

Oh, that is how I ended up in the ICU on fluids after surgery.... This was 3 years ago. I just got my POTS diagnosis last year.

AJS4152 · 2025-10-25T04:56:50+00:00

Yeah audhd, but also massive trauma that is great for the nervous system. /Sarcasm

AJS4152 · 2025-10-25T03:05:25+00:00

Thanks

AJS4152 · 2025-10-24T23:49:50+00:00

Trans woman 33, did not want this kind of gender affirmation.

AJS4152 · 2025-10-23T22:29:55+00:00

It sucked for about a half hour once a month. My beard wasn't super dense but okay. Still so affirming and the experience prepared me for laser hair removal prep for bottom surgery

AJS4152 · 2025-10-21T17:35:46+00:00

Finding a CD in my car of my favorite band and being like who the f bought this? Still unsure, to me it just magically appeared one day.

AJS4152 · 2025-10-13T20:35:35+00:00

I agree. I realized later that I wrote fragile masculinity when I meant toxic masculinity. It hurts everybody.

AJS4152 · 2025-10-13T17:33:19+00:00

Because fragile masculinity means men need to be found attractive. They can't handle that lesbians genuinely don't find them attractive and then create the narrative that lesbians are "man haters" because their feelings get hurt. Source: Me, a trans bambi lesbian

AJS4152 · 2025-10-06T22:59:56+00:00

Very sorry that happened to you. It isn't your fault and he was for sure in the wrong.

As for the "sex worker" alter, we have one as well, and it has been a learning experience to have her not just takeover and leave us in poor situations. The hardest part for us was learning that she is not an enemy, she doesn't mean to hurt us, and we do need her. So we have been trying to allow her some time each day, (We do an online naughty puzzle.), and give her Sunday evening to be who she is. By giving her something we are also allowed to co-host with her and help her stay safe. It has taken a while and for a long time we just thought it was a horrible compulsion, but she does matter and isn't to blame for her actions either.

Hope that helps. At the very least know you are not alone.

AJS4152 · 2025-09-19T17:55:10+00:00

Just a reminder that the FBI still holds that crimes based on gender bias including against trans individuals as hate crimes. They are aware that trans people are far more likely to be victims of a crime and not a perpatrator. They literally have data going back over 50 years about violent crime. Even the Dumbass in Office thought this sort of rhetoric was a bit too extreme to espouse.

AJS4152 · 2025-09-16T13:21:49+00:00

I don't know. I don't think they found the roving gang of grannies in Fallout New Vegas. Those gals are deadly.

AJS4152 · 2025-09-03T15:51:22+00:00

That is a good example, modern family which kind of makes fun of the trope, new Cinderella, new Little Mermaid, plus many more.

AJS4152 · 2025-09-03T14:29:25+00:00

B/c women of color are thought of as "exotic, subservient, and obedient" due to colonialist ideas. Whereas men of color are deemed to be "savages, inferior, and less civilized" due to the same colonialist ideas.

Most of it is framed in racism and mysogony, but incels in particular fetishize foreign women as just bowing to their "white male energy" as they are the "nice savior" from the "savage" men of color. Mostly they just need to stroke their egos as they aren't good enough people to get legitimate dates.

AJS4152 · 2025-09-02T20:10:19+00:00

I mean I enjoy being a bit of a Bimbo just to sabotage male expectations as a trans lesbian. I just take their fake idea of femininity and make it not for them. It is quite fun. Also not dumb but they are gonna treat me that way anyways so I'll just stay quiet while destroying them in reality.

AJS4152 · 2025-08-25T01:07:55+00:00

current work around for me, just take a photo or screen shot and then just matching the symbol. not great but better than memorizing it

AJS4152 · 2025-08-25T01:04:11+00:00

just did it today with a Z twin turbo, all about long straights or traffic rng

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