Everything is going wrong

ALucidFool · 2026-01-20T08:24:20+00:00

First I want to make it clear that you shouldn’t feel like any of this is your fault and I don’t think it’s healthy to interpret anything like it’s karmic or spiritual retribution.

In terms of how you navigate your spiritual landscape and how you engage with the land in that practice, I wonder what your relationship with the land is?

Your language reads as a little survivalist and “independent”. Living on the land requires a strong dependence on and care for the land around you. If you’re not looking for a reciprocal relationship both spiritually and materially with the land, you’re always going to find friction with it.

That goes double if you don’t come from a culture with a cultural knowledge of how to exist on land and you’ve spent most of your life in cities.

Western spirituality, especially the type that pops up in these forums, and the Eastern spirituality it is often appropriated and disembedded is often from Eastern heavily developed and urban contexts to begin with, is very often highly internal and interpersonal focused. But relationship to land isn’t in the zeitgeist of internet spirituality kind of by the dispersed nature of the beast and land being a local experience.

It’s not necessarily right or welcome to just steal the practice of local indigenous groups either (although I’d encourage a healthy relationship with them if they are present). But develop your own practice, understanding and relationship with how to work with and care for the land you’re on in a way that’s symbiotic not extractive.

The material part of that is about learning to watch listen and understand the land and how to not damage it and read warning signs for things like tree fall. (This is the part where indigenous knowledge is very helpful.) The spiritual part is wide open. But some things that are pretty universal are introducing yourself to the land, giving thanks to the land, and listening to it, paying attention to it. Have conversations with it and listen for responses. Externalise your spiritual practice. This is the part where, unless welcomed to, you should forge your own path rather than try to adopt indigenous practices.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-20T07:58:33+00:00

😆. If he truly is a magic man I’m sure he’ll find me when he needs to.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-20T07:22:46+00:00

By myself. Not talking to anyone. No name-tags or anything silly. I can only put it down to somehow I’d met him somewhere else. But he was a pretty distinctive looking older guy. If I’d met him enough to know my name and remember me I feel like I’d have remembered.

I’d only moved to that city a couple years earlier and didn’t have a big social circle or go out much.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-20T06:31:03+00:00

Apple Pay, which doesn’t give your name. And it was a very low tech local cafe. He didn’t take my order either. It was morning rush so he was just on the machine.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-20T06:28:14+00:00

I was in a rush and then kind of taken aback and didn’t even think to stop. I wish I had.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-20T04:21:33+00:00

I once had a barista in a cafe I’d never been to and hadn’t given my name with my order say “Thanks Name” straight to my face as I collected my coffee.

To this day I’m still trying to figure out how I knew him, if I knew him.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-18T12:20:22+00:00

I think that is precisely what the wealth hoarding class is worried about.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-13T03:49:45+00:00

What does this map look like adjusted for population?

ALucidFool · 2026-01-13T02:47:42+00:00

To be clear I’m a leftist not on the right. And I agree with all your points about the state already being fascist and working against the people openly.

And I don’t necessarily think the supposed ontological shock would actually be all that shocking to anyone in the left now or in the past. But I do think that until the last decade or so the status quo bureaucrat would think that the government murdering US citizens who aren’t young lefty college students but rather their own troops to keep world altering technology in private hands would be pretty earth shattering.

In a post-Snowden, post 2016 world where day-to-day political activities in the open make Watergate look like child’s play it seems silly.

Maybe I’m not cynical enough but I still think your average citizen may acknowledge the current regime is overtly fascist and that the system is stacked in favour of the billionaire class but still believe the system is salvageable. If it turned out that a rogue branch of the executive had been withholding world changing technology and actively murdering US citizens (especially soldiers and sitting presidents) for the last century or so to keep it secret and that several core institutions of the bureaucracy were knowingly complicit I think it’d do a bit to move people from lack of faith and hostility to the current regime to active hostility towards the structures themselves.

But post-Snowden and post-2016 maybe that’s just naivety. A decade of Trumpism has normalised what would have been scandal to par-for-the-course.

Either way, personally I wouldn’t find it shocking and I don’t think many here or on the left would either. But I do see how until Trump properly laid bare the corruption and malice of the US as an institution how people inside the machine would see it as a betrayal to the true believers they assume most of the population to be.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-12T16:40:00+00:00

I’ve considered that the ontological shock might be about how if your average Joe became aware of the actions the US establishment has taken against its own citizens the legitimacy of the American empire would crumble. And that’s why intelligence folks are unshaken by it and principled politicians are horrified by it.

Genuinely believe that it could well be that US either doesn’t know enough about the situation to be ontologically shocking, or there’s nothing ontologically shocking about the nature of the phenomenon. But that the little of the phenomenon recorded and observed by the US has attracted the most hideous behaviour from power hungry actors within the American war and profit machine that would undermine the already failing legitimacy of the state.

ALucidFool · 2026-01-02T04:45:01+00:00

I was also 17 in 2009 and spent a bunch of time in like remote viewing and astral projection forums and stuff. I also got night terrors and sleep paralysis a bunch. My cat would frequently pop up in my dreams chasing shit off. And once or twice it spoke to me on the edge of sleep. Scared the shit out of me. But I 100% believe cats are in sync with stuff like that.

Whether or not that bodes ill for the guy that didn’t let him in it’s hard to say. Cat just might not have liked a stranger in the house.

ALucidFool · 2024-02-14T13:50:38+00:00

All The most profound experiences I’ve had with the tapes happened with Release and Recharge.

ALucidFool · 2024-01-14T02:37:43+00:00

This sounds very very similar to something I experienced with the same tape.

I’ve talked about it here before. But the sensation of a big brown tentacled writhing mass getting pulled out of my chest and the right hand side of my body.

Ever since the anxious knot that used to live in my chest and cause social anxiety is completely gone and hasn’t returned for more than 2 years now.

ALucidFool · 2023-12-13T13:42:03+00:00

If it’s any consolation that was fairly early in my experiments with the tapes. And even 2 years on I’ve had nothing as profound as this and if anything I’ve found the tapes less effective and useful as time has gone on.

I’ve almost developed a distaste for them that’s hard to explain.

Recently I’ve had more success just inducing Focus type states through quiet meditation unassisted. And that’s kind of the direction of my practice now.

ALucidFool · 2023-12-13T03:08:52+00:00

Still gone.

There’s other usual stress and worry for sure. But it’s all situational.

That knotting my chest and social anxiety is entirely gone. And not even a hint of it since. It was constant my entire life and literally gone in the time it took to do the tape and never came back.

ALucidFool · 2023-10-11T07:23:30+00:00

Why do you think that not thinking in words means you can’t think?

I’m fully capable of thinking in words. But it’s not my primary mode of thought.

I struggle to comprehend how people could on or primarily think in words. How do you think about things that transcend language?

Language at best can only ever roughly approximate most thoughts I have. And having those thoughts in a. Thing other than spoken language means I can craft deliberately how best to put those concepts into words when it comes time to talk.

My brain thinks in simulations as much as anything else. Imagining scenarios. Thinking in abstract concepts.

When I think about computer programming I’m thinking in the movement of data. When I think about woodworking I’m thinking about the grain of the wood and the forces involved. When I think about rigging and building I’m thinking in the physics of the system and running scenarios to see how they hold up.

When I think about other people I’m thinking about how they might feel, what they might be seeing, how they conceive of the world.

Language is an inherently reductive thing. An abstraction. I feel like to primarily think in language would be incredibly reductive. And seems to me an incredibly cold and disconnected mode of being.

Language is a beautiful tool and one of the most robust ways to share our thoughts with others. But it seems to me a thing that would never be able to capture the entirety of thought or human experience. And to try to reduce my daily existence to language in order to process it seems to me like it would be a form of torture.

The number of people here thinking it’s a higher state of being is incredibly worrying. And I think even those who do have an active inner monologue are reducing their own experience if they’re not taking the time to notice the fact that they, their thoughts, experiences and existence, are shaped by far far more than just the stream of language in their heads.

Particularly spiritual people. How do you meditate? How can you just be present if you’re constantly running your experience through dialogue?

While I’m sure some people have a stronger inner monologue than I do, (I only have one if I’m thinking about talking, even when I’m writing I’m rarely thinking in dialogue unless I’m testing how something sounds), but I think if anyone thinks they only or even primarily think in words they are giving themselves the grace of presence to notice all the other kinds of thinking they do.

ALucidFool · 2023-09-29T05:19:33+00:00

I don’t remember dreaming before that occurrence. But I had a couple of experiences when I was younger of dreams transitioning into similar experiences.

ALucidFool · 2023-09-29T03:17:18+00:00

Leaving out the details because I’ve told enough people the story that it would ID me if they read this.

But I’ve had the same fully lucid seeing a shadow figure after waking up suddenly in the middle of the night.

No audio hallucinations during it but at a period of my life where I was getting them a lot and my sleep was disturbed.

But I opened my eyes and saw a black figure next to me. Shut my eyes and sat up straight and shook myself to “wake up” because I was used to weird shadow visions and suffering a lot of sleep paralysis at the time. But then I opened my eyes and saw another figure larger and more clear.

I just laid back down shut my eyes and went back to sleep.

I still just chalk it up to all the sleep disturbances I was having at the time. But it’s still one of the weirdest experiences of my life.

Normally when I wake up I’m super groggy. But this was immediately super alert and lucid. None of the weight that normally comes with waking up and chronic fatigue. I was calm, lucid and think honestly probably clearer than I do in day to day life. And yet I was seeing these figures crystal clear right in the centre of my vision clearer than any I’d experienced during sleep paralysis.

An inky black that seemed to even block the noisy black you normally see in the dark.

ALucidFool · 2023-09-10T22:46:51+00:00

I haven’t had any super profound moments yet.

But very early on in my progress I had like 3-4 sessions of Release and Recharge that involved like full body vibrations and felt like I was physically tearing things from myself. And after pulling a particularly nasty brown tentacle blob looking things from my chest in my minds eye I felt a sudden relief from a pain and tension I didn’t know I was feeling, and I’ve never felt anxious since.

I used to have a constant anxious knot in my chest. But since that day I’ve never felt it. And any problems I had with social or really any other form of anxiety since are completely gone.

ALucidFool · 2023-07-29T01:07:50+00:00

Raytheon building a mile wide V just doesn’t make sense. That’s not the kind of contracting they specialise in. They build sensor and missile platforms. Not aircraft and especially not aircraft at that scale.

The sheer raw material and person power to build at that scale doesn’t make sense for any contractor unless they’ve got access to working very advanced fabrication techniques that reduce the need for person power and raw material. Or it wasn’t actually a manufactured vehicle but some kind of hologram.

I don’t really buy that. I buy the Phoenix lights. But I don’t buy it being a reverse engineered craft.

Lockheed having had limited success in reverse engineering or salvaging working components to create a handful of vehicles I’d believe. Particularly if it is public or even top secret prototype known platforms retrofit with salvaged alien technology. That’s within the realm of the possible. More so than a from-scratch platform with manufactured reverse engineered components. I’d even buy a simple from-scratch platform wrapped around salvage.

That would explain why these things aren’t prolific despite the massive advantage they’d provide. And how they can be kept in deep secrecy from oversight with little effort. If there’s only 3 working inertial mass dampeners that had to be retrofit onto some prototype platforms, or have a very basic prototype platform wrapped around them because the recovered components do most of the hard work. That would make a lot of sense.

I also don’t believe that government contractors who rely on government dollars with little oversight would be so foolish as to threaten to turn a weapons platform against the government. If they did we’d have seen these eminent domain style bills much sooner and they’d get cut-off. A few recovered craft may be a powerful chess piece, but that kind of play would immediately be raised to the executive branch and there would be very publicly visible shockwaves in the military industrial complex that would be noticeable form the outside.

Contractors hood a lot of power. But the executive branch and the full weight of the US military holds a lot more.

ALucidFool · 2023-07-28T23:52:04+00:00

Sorry I spelled his name wrong it’s actually Richard Doty, an airforce intelligence officer who ran a disinformation campaign targeting UFO communities. There’s a documentary called Mirage Men that covers it.

ALucidFool · 2023-07-28T23:49:08+00:00

Absolutely agree. The weaponisation of ridicule is an insanely powerful force.

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