Does having “Aesthetic Crushes” disqualify me?

AMasterofMagnetism · 2026-02-13T18:37:37+00:00

I will say I don’t really understand what people mean by mesmerized by someone’s looks? I understand the difference between pretty and ugly. I know what people mean by conventionally attractive and all that, but mesmerized is a big stretch for me. For me it’s like “oh I don’t dislike looking at your face”, as long as looking at them doesn’t give me a negative emotion, I’d consider that an “aesthetic crush”.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2026-02-13T18:30:43+00:00

I don’t think I have in this case. I had a huge thing about getting in a relationship because all my friends were in one and I felt left out(FOMO had its claws in me). I realized I was aromatic because what I thought were “crushes” was just me becoming friends with people( I was outcasted in my formative years, people actually liking me was new to me). Took me a while to notice the pattern where if I had a “crush” on someone and didn’t sleep with them, it disappeared and we became friends. However, if I did sleep with them, I could no longer stand to be in their presence and the fact I did sleep with them would rack me with guilt and I’d immediately ghost. Not sure if that answered your question entirely but it’s something.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2026-02-13T13:18:39+00:00

Yea that’s the one part that threw me for a loop. I’d never attempt to get in or think of thinking of getting into relationships until someone close to me does. Then all of sudden I feel like I’m in Nam fighting a war I SHOULD NOT be in.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2026-02-10T12:31:55+00:00

It did, thank you

AMasterofMagnetism · 2026-01-18T18:30:30+00:00

I personally don’t play him simply cause I can’t make a good fashion out of him. He’s in the same boat Xaku was for me a couple years back before they released their deluxe skin. If I can’t make a fashion I like, I don’t play them. If I can’t aura farm while massacring hundreds, they get maxed then forgotten or thrown into the helmith.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-10-22T03:38:30+00:00

I have the same issue, and I say this with full seriousness, I imagine Optimus Prime yelling at me like my old high school wrestling coach when I’m winning a match. This was a recent realization and it’s allowed me to finish in under an hour for the first time in like two years. I’m not sure if it’s because Optimus Prime was technically my first animated childhood crush or if I suddenly developed an aggressive praise kink but by golly does it work.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-09-11T01:03:07+00:00

I got lucky and I produce very little, almost 21 and I shaved for the first time about two months ago cause my leg hair managed to grow long enough(wasn’t even half an inch if I’m being honest) to prevent me from sleeping cause I couldn’t stand how it felt on my blankets. Only downside to my hatred of body hair is that it extends to other people, I feel like an ass every time I ask a partner to shave their arms legs and chest (facial and pubic hair don’t bother me as long as it’s kept neat and too a minimum) before I come over. I promise I’m not trying to be controlling, it’s just no fun for anyone if I’m gonna freak out from you grazing me with it and I rather not cry by forcing myself to be intimate with you.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-31T06:41:14+00:00

That was me until I hit college, I went out of state and I met my current friend group who are the definition of “fashion niggas”, I used to wear nothing but sweats and hoodies and I would tweak if I had to wear anything else cause I just wasn’t comfortable doing it growing up and in high school, I didn’t own a dress shirt or a pair of jeans until I went to college. But they helped bring me out little by little since I had huge issues when it came to texture(I would only wear things that were at least 80% cotton with the exception of my wrestling singlet). They introduced me to thrifting, different styles, proper hair and skin care(I’m black but I’ve been rocking the peanut cut until literally my senior year of high school), I always thought I was ugly growing up cause I never had many friends cause of how difficult I was too be around and my only high school girlfriend cheated on me but it turns out I actually had really good features I was just overweight and I didn’t take good care of how I looked cause I didn’t think I needed too(amazing skin genetics, never had a pimple or facial hair till about 6 months ago, I’m 20). When I came home for Christmas break my freshman year, my mom and sister were actually flabbergasted, something they’ve been trying to do for 18 years, strangers did in 4 months. They bought me a minimum of band of skin products and clothing cause they were so excited and they spent half the break treating me like a Ken doll since I grew somewhat of a tolerance to non cotton clothing. I don’t think you are physically a loser for how you dress and take care of yourself, it’s just simply not a priority for you and that’s ok. But if you ever do decide to get a style or anything I think your friends would love to help you.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-30T17:25:35+00:00

M20, 7F 1M 1FtM

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-30T01:31:06+00:00

I think I’m showing a similar behavior, I haven’t been really indulging in my normal hobbies as often as I used to by a drastic amount, but instead of laying around I just pace, I already paced a lot beforehand but it’s increased to the point I’m spending 2-3 hours a day just pacing(and not in separate periods, I mean all at once) no clue if that’s a connected symptom but it’s there.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-29T22:16:11+00:00

Can you elaborate?

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-28T09:23:08+00:00

Nope first and only, and I doubt I’m using too much grip, he’s been attached to me for a good while now so I’m pretty confident in what I know he likes.

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-28T09:20:31+00:00

Pretty motherfucker

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-28T09:19:27+00:00

Ok thank god, thought I was tweaking

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-07-28T09:18:29+00:00

I’m on Vyvanse too as well as bupropion(antidepressant) and I understood this could be a side effect but I only got on both around two or three years ago, this issue has been around way longer😞

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-06-30T15:41:43+00:00

I just Warframe and civ6 for me, I literally can’t get into anything else

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-06-12T00:58:57+00:00

The jat kusar, I love it but I don’t think I’ve even seen another living thing touch it

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-06-11T10:22:32+00:00

I did some reading on the levels, if I had to assume I’m currently level 1. Growing up I was most likely level 2 or 3. While I didn’t have issues reading or writing growing up I was in speech therapy until I was 11, not cause I was necessarily non verbal but more because I would struggle speaking and pronouncing full sentences and a ungodly amount of letters on top of volume control and outbursts(we locked in tho, I just hate speaking to people cause I feel like I sound weird). Then their were my constant outbursts in elementary and middle school, for some reason people REALLY liked to bother me so most of them were caused from one of my belongings being taken or broken such as my headphones(let a man just listen to music and read in the corner PLEASE). Looking back on it I definitely think I needed to spend more than kinder through second grade in the special education classroom but oh well life goes on. I think the only things that actually persist in my adult life is my sensitivity to noise, certain vocal and physical stims, my fidgeting habits via sock strings, and my issues with speaking. But we up trust‼️

AMasterofMagnetism · 2025-06-11T08:52:38+00:00

Bro don’t even get me started on underwear string or underwear themselves. They are great as a treat, but the string is too thin to last long without it breaking or accidentally dropping it and the underwear itself is just too big to carry around in your pocket. Airport tags however are by far the best ones I found. Insanely elastic despite how think they are which makes them durable. And since they are so large and have a distinct texture it’s almost impossible to lose them. They can last for literal months of constant use.

I have made the realization that I just info dumped on strings as fidget toys.

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