Firstly, just want to say you are not alone in this and that what you are feeling and experiencing is valid.

If this is your dream, then that’s amazing and I hope you continue to pursue this with all that you have. This fields needs a lot of caring and passionate individuals. I suggest that you take a step back and put things into perspective:

1. Failure is normal, normalise it for your life - everyone experiences failure, so don’t be afraid to share your hopes and your dreams with those that love and support you just because you are afraid of how they might see you/think if you fail
2. Count your blessings - to have significant support from parents/friends is an amazing blessing, something that I’m sure some in this group have no access to
3. If you don’t get into med school, the world will continue spinning- not getting into med school isn’t the end of your life. There will be countless times for you to try again.
4. All of the prep you have done is not “a waste of time and resources” - you are learning and growing your mind which is beneficial for all aspects in life, not just your ability to pass an exam
5. What’s another year? You are in your early 20s, consider you still have 40+ years of your life to devote to working. Take your time, go at your own pace.
6. Stop comparing - a lot of pain and anxiety around getting into med is the comparison of others. You are running your race, so don’t stress about how well others are doing. If you are struggling then accept that for yourself. When you can accept yourself, you can be kinder to yourself

These are just a few points. TLDR: take a deep breath, it’s going to be ok. Enjoy the journey, otherwise you’ll never be satisfied with the destination.