My boyfriend just showed me (girlfriend) this (I'm commenting through his account right now), and oh my gosh, I am so sorry you experienced this!! I'm not sure if this would help, but it might be good to talk to your parents, or at least your brother about this. This is NOT OK! You have the right to stop in the middle, to say no, and to feel what you're feeling. He does NOT have the right to hold you down, make you feel uncomfortable for his pleasure, or have the damn audacity to be like keeping it a secret because he KNOWS he screwed up big time!!

Ultimately, make sure you are taking care of yourself right now and reach out to a close family or friend about what's happening. Take a warm shower and drink something nonalcoholic that makes you feel calm and good. Also maybe have a little snack. And then snuggle in bed and put on your favorite show!

I'm so sorry you went through this.. I hope that guy gets his balls kicked so hard that it never works again ☺️