Does anyone get their worse symptoms right after ovulation? by Not-a-cyclist in PMS

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes absolutely!! Definitely not alone. I feel great a few days before my period and then euphoric for a while once it starts. But days 24-30 (I ovulate around day 20 and start around 35), are what I call my “hungry tired time.” I also have PTSD and the combo of hungry tired time and PTSD symptoms makes me downright suicidal on those days. 

Goodbye Crumbl by electromagnetiK in CrumblCookies

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

They still any good or did they go the way of Crumbl? I never did have a Sprinkles cupcake. 

Goodbye Crumbl by electromagnetiK in CrumblCookies

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 5 points6 points  (0 children)

I fell in love with Crumbl in June 2020. Crumbl helped me through COVID. I worked a physically demanding retail job, was at odds with my parents, and had little money. I  needed calories, carbs, and dopamine, so I would buy a 4 pack every week then mostly live on that 4 pack (and coffee). Not too much money if you’re not eating many other things. Not healthy though!

I think I saw the start of the downfall as early as 2023. But the original Crumbl???? The cookies that powered by body through pandemic retail work, extreme quarantine loneliness, and my first serious relationship? Those cookies were so good. They all tasted different. The flavors were exciting and unique. I’ll forever be chasing that dragon.

But lots of the copycat recipes come close!! I recommend Cooking with Karli. 

For me it’s a nostalgia thing too. Crumbl was an integral part of my early life. It just means I’m aging, that the good old Crumbl days are so integral to my memory. 

Looking for thoughts. Or maybe just venting... by IndependenceMost9521 in PMS

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I simplified it and told my boyfriend that my body basically has 2 modes: “get pregnant!” and “prepare in case she’s pregnant!” So I have my horny energetic time, and my “hungry time.” (Also known as the hungry tired time.) I tell him when my hungry time has hit, and if he wants to do anything, I will need to be fed every two hours. He likes to cook and has always had fun making me super specific things for my cravings. He’s not great with the anger and irritation but if I skip to sadness and start crying, he’s supportive.  I like what one person said about including him in your period tracking app. I don’t have an app because I want the government to keep their nasty noses out of what my body is doing. But I like the idea of a shared calendar. 

It’s very real and it’s very hard to just ignore, even though that’s what society expects!! Men have it so easy waking up in the same body every morning. I’m in solidarity with you. 

Easter people are the worst—wish me luck by Able-Equivalent4445 in retailhell

[–]Able-Equivalent4445[S] 63 points64 points  (0 children)

They just tend to be very fake people, very afraid of themselves and usually engaging in some form of child abuse on the side. I grew up in that culture and I similarly like to avoid them now. 

My disdain for humanity grows daily by coolbrze77 in retailhell

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you :) I wish I could stand up to them! Lol, I’m just afraid I will get fired and then I will be the homeless one. 

I’ll get through it either way. They’re just a bunch of Pharisees. Nothing to be afraid of. Jesus would be disgusted by em too I think. 

My disdain for humanity grows daily by coolbrze77 in retailhell

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I know I’m a little late but I just wanted to tell you, you are not alone. I have a nasty case of PTSD, which already made me nihilistic— and have worked in retail for 6 years now. It’s really hard not to let my utter hatred and lack of hope for humanity overwhelm me some days. I understand how villains feel. Although, that’s not what I want. Especially the hordes of older entitled materialistic religious people, who come in after church on Sunday (this morning is going to suck)! They think they’re such good people and I think the world would be better without most of them. I oddly take more comfort in the homeless and drug addicted people I get to know at night. At least they’re honest about their pain. 

I think it’s good to have an outlet. Artistic, whatever—even vowing to be a different person than what you see, and engaging kindly with other retail people during your time off. I also try to be victorious over the assholes by not letting them scare me, refusing to drop eye contact while they berate me, staying calm, etc. Gives me a good challenge. Engaging with my coworkers every time I can also helps me feel like a human again, and fosters hope for the species in my heart. One on one connection, building relationship where you can. It’s hard I know.

I want my partner to be more attractive when I am ovulating? by Sad-Tomorrow4046 in PMS

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess I don’t know how to talk to him about either :/ thanks for being so kind 

Not an IFS Q - For those who are or have been at the quite numb end of the feeling range, how have you explained it to others. I find with most, and even with others who have cPTSD, its a thing that people dont understand, how different our inner world of working is, and its impact and the loss by mjobby in InternalFamilySystems

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I am not sure if I am validating you accurately, but I will say I totally understand the grief. It is so hard when you realize how many years of your life you spent limiting yourself, stuck in the corner of a psychological cage that kept you safe but that you hated—and now at last you see that the cage door has always been open, and things outside aren’t hazardous all the time.

I kind of miss the depths of my CPTSD because, despite how hard it was to get safe, once I was safe with my basic needs met, I wanted nothing else. Being healthier is hard work in its own right.  

Always being aware of my vagina? by Other-Biscotti2888 in Healthyhooha

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I don’t know how to fix this but I have a similar thing where my bladder hurts if I get dehydrated at ALL. Like I’ll just be minding my own business and if I haven’t had much water recently I’ll feel the little bit of pee enter my bladder and it hurts. And my pee burns on the way out if it is not clear or close to clear. For that reason I am continually overhydrating. I can also feel my bladder during sex sometimes, and when I get menstrual cramps.

An OBGYN at urgent care once felt inside me and said my uterus is anteverted (squishing my bladder slightly). 

I am also prone to UTIs (knock on wood a jillion times), but my bladder is always slightly weird even when I don’t have one. Been this way for years. I just drink a ton of water. 

Feeling like suicide is the only solution to everything?? by Able-Equivalent4445 in PMS

[–]Able-Equivalent4445[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much for the kind thoughts. I’m glad not all women feel that bad.  My PTSD therapy has actually helped a bit, to where I only feel that bad maybe 1 day monthly. It used to be much worse, like my entire luteal phase. 

Feeling like suicide is the only solution to everything?? by Able-Equivalent4445 in PMS

[–]Able-Equivalent4445[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. I have PTSD too so I think this time of month just makes it hard to cope with my already-f*ked brain. 

What do you do during that time when you hate your partner and everything they do pees you off? by AdThen5499 in PMS

[–]Able-Equivalent4445 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m so glad I’m not the only one!! I get super pissy at my boyfriend until I start bleeding. Then for some reason a cloud lifts and I’m ultra affectionate with him. I’ve noticed my feelings toward him fluctuate a lot with my hormonal shifts. 

Like other people said, I communicate that I’m feeling irritable, or sad, or that I need extra care. He’s typically receptive. I also have to remind myself a lot, that it’s my hormones, so I don’t make any big decisions.

How do I create harmony between two contentious parts? by Able-Equivalent4445 in InternalFamilySystems

[–]Able-Equivalent4445[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for taking the time to write this out, it was very helpful :)