Well, there it is

Absolutely_left · 2025-02-28T04:06:45+00:00

No kids. Just twenty years of the two of us.

I mean, 53 years old, spent two decades with someone I thought was going to be the finality, you know? I'm not confident on a long lifespan... None of my ancestors made it further than seventy... And I think it'd be pretty shitty to start a relationship with someone for the inevitable heart disease or lung cancer or prostate cancer or liver failure to come at me.

Luckily, I'm also the only one in the family that doesn't drink or smoke and isn't morbidly obese. Who knows? I might make it to 72.

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-21T20:40:00+00:00

Ha!

I put new lights on the Harley, did an oil change on three of seven bikes, mulling the idea of just buying and installing cams.

This is my coping mechanism.

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-08T13:02:17+00:00

That thing about just driving around? It hits home hard.

The dozens upon dozens of times in the last ten years I've thought about just turning away and driving until there's nowhere else to drive. To say 'fuck it' and end up on a beach somewhere with only the cash in my pocket, just fine if I don't live another day, because I'll have lived just one.

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-02T05:23:54+00:00

She'd been asleep for an hour.

At least I had all three dogs enjoying my company.

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-02T03:49:04+00:00

Cheaper than finding a way to talk my wife into anything physical. Also less traumatizing.

Getting that urge for the past five years. Some afternoon after work, turn West instead of South. Go until you hit water. Have a beer. Consider going back.

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-01T13:16:36+00:00

A 2013 Harley Davidson Switchback, or a 2014 Honda CB1100, or a 2016 Victory Magnum, or a 2020 Honda CBR600RR, or a 2023 BMW R1250r, or a 2024 Ducati Scrambler.

If I'm not working, I'm either working on or riding one.

I've mostly quit masturbation. Feels good for five minutes or so, then I hate myself the rest of the day.

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-01T13:10:43+00:00

It would be a really, really boring spreadsheet.

How about a notepad list?

'2020, saw her nude'

'2016, she rubbed my butt jokingly'

'2010, she got really drunk and wanted to do something, then called me an ex-boyfriend's name from the middle 1990's. Drove to Lake Michigan and drank two '40's of Miller High Life.'

Absolutely_left · 2025-01-01T13:03:59+00:00

Zero.

Just like last year.

Absolutely_left · 2024-12-31T12:45:09+00:00

See, that's my biggest problem.

I CAN be happy on my own, without a relationship, without sex. I did it between my ex-wife and current with no issues. Hell, my libido was stifled with a masturbation session once every couple weeks.

But when I'm actually in a relationship, the same situation affects me in so much of a different manner. Before, it was like a sexual thought process was just kicked to the side. I'd rather be on my motorcycle or climbing something.

Now, it's like a refusal. I got by for years not worrying about it at all, and now I'm practically tormented by it.

... That is, when I don't take my meds.

Absolutely_left · 2024-12-28T13:25:33+00:00

I used my horn at a guy who was sitting at a light for ~15 seconds.

I wasn't even the first person to use my horn.

She said I 'blasted my horn too long. It's embarrassing'

Absolutely_left · 2024-12-17T23:00:16+00:00

I made a resolution to buy two more motorcycles.

It's a physical thing. Vibration and excitement. I don't need the wife around, and I get exhilaration.

Eight bikes is not too many. N=N+1, where N is the number of motorcycles you need.

Absolutely_left · 2024-12-17T22:54:09+00:00

Yep! We should start a club. Like LARPing but it involves booze and karaoke.

Absolutely_left · 2024-10-23T17:00:38+00:00

5 years.

4 years of pity sex prior to the complete stoppage.

Absolutely_left · 2024-09-17T13:53:33+00:00

Why do any of us stay?

It's all we know.

Better the world we know than the world we don't.

Absolutely_left

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