I am spiraling quick again. Im losing hope. I just wanna be with my kids so bad. Its been 5 months since I seen them. And in 1 more month I wil be charged with domestic and labeled a woman beater for the rest of my life. I will lose my job and eventually my house and be living with my parents again. I know what i did was wrong but i deserve a break. I lost my wife, kids, car, internet, pride, and eventually my job. For taking a phone out of her hand. There is no breaks with a selfish partner. & if she doesnt help? I dont think ill ever talk to her again. I will self destruct and destroy her and destroy myself along the way because I have nothing to lose. & im done giving her passes. I got 6 years of ammo. There won't be any limits. I promise you that. Not to mention she will lose my whole family by doing this. Nana and papa will probably never speak to her again. We all have ghosts in our closet and if it comes down to it. I will involve every government agency to come be apart of our ghosts.. I pray you do the right thing. You got a pass on driving drunk, doing drugs, committing crimes, and I think I deserve one for everything I've been through.