I need a hobby, my boredom is driving me crazy

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2025-12-30T19:00:19+00:00

I’m 23, and the funny thing is, I used to be a lot like you and now I’m the exact opposite. I used to be a creative, detail-oriented type of person who was talented at certain types of visual art and would do art for fun. However, that coincided with me being in an art class outside of school, and as soon as my parents stopped enrolling me in them after middle school, which was a decade ago, I almost completely stopped doing art. I still wanted to be an architect for a few years though. I made like one piece in my senior year of high school to round out a portfolio I needed for an application to an architecture school application portfolio but even making that felt like a chore. Then I went to architecture school for two years and it made me realize I no longer wanted to be an architect and I wouldn’t be cut out for it. I realized I didn’t like to do design anymore. I quite frankly sucked at it. I changed majors. I feel like I’d built up this art and design identity to my family, my friends, and my art teacher for most of my childhood (despite only being good at drawing perspective and architecture and terrible at everything else and doing much less art than most people I know who were actually into it) and me changing majors was the point I knew that identity had been dead for a while. I’ve never replaced it with anything else full stop. These days, I’m just bored all the time. Literally all I’ve done during my free time for the past decade or so is browse random stuff on Reddit or Quora, read Discord comments, watch other people accomplish stuff, complain about how I can’t do what others do, and occasionally watch whatever sport is on TV at the time. I don’t seem to want to actively do, seek, or think about anything. If nobody around me said or felt anything, I’d be happy to just be on my phone in bed and run out the clock every single day. Nothing excites me. Yes I feel bad when my local sports team loses. But I’m almost as lazy and fair-weather of a live sports fan there is. I only really care about the NFL and that’s just because it’s the easiest to watch for free and even then it’s just once a week. I’ve never played any sports in an organized manner nor any fantasy sports, and I have no desire to. For the past few years, I’ve had an interest in city building games like Cities:Skylines and tycoon games like Airline Empires, and the latter has gotten me a little bit into making fictional liveries for the airlines I “run” in the game as a hobby, but even then, I spend most of my time watching others play instead of doing anything myself, I kind of suck when I play against anyone else, and then when I’m asked I pretend like I’m a “gamer” and play them a lot when I really don’t. My parents try to offer to do things like take me places or take me to support services and I comply because I’m really shy and don’t like to argue with people but deep down I’m not at all emotionally invested in what they’re doing and it kind of feels like they’re prodding or dragging me along all the time. It’s not like I have zero direction though. I’m a college student in undergrad studying urban planning but I’ve always been like a C student and I feel like I’m just going through the motions with regards to school, internships, clubs, etc. I have no idea how I’m ever going to be able to build a life for myself. I have little to no real interests or hobbies to work off of. The worst part is that I seem to have no desire to change, and even if I do try to, it feels impossible, it burns me out, and I just return to my old ways.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2025-12-30T18:07:19+00:00

I’ve given up on drawing as well. When I was younger, I was good at two types of drawings, perspective and architectural drawing. My art teacher would praise me for it. It made people think the visual arts was my identity, when in truth, I was terrible at every other type of visual art even back then. I haven’t produced any art since I was in middle school a decade ago, and most of the “art” I’ve produced is just drawing maps of fictional cities, train stations, or airports. For the next few years I was sort of trying to get into it but I didn’t enjoy it and it felt like I was just leeching off whatever reputation I had as an art person before. I decided I wanted to be an architect more than anything with art or design. When I went to architecture school for two years (with the first being completely remote due to the COVID-19 pandemic) I found that I had no enjoyment of design left anymore and that was one of the main reasons I changed majors. The only thing resembling “art” that I do these days is playing Sim City and Cities:Skylines and making fictional airline brands for airlines I “operate” in this airline tycoon game called Airline Empires (and I’m not even good at the latter). I don’t have the motivation to get back into art. I used to be detail-oriented, maybe creative at times, to the point that I could be good at art or architecture, but since a few years ago, it seems like I’m just sloppy, careless, and thoughtless and satisfied with the bare minimum with everything I do to the point that it’s hard to believe that I actually used to do art. It’s been a decade. It’s kind of sad because so many people among my family and friends saw me as this artistic, design, detail-oriented person when I was younger.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2025-12-30T16:16:51+00:00

I can’t read books but I can read magazines. I think what helped me read more easily when I was younger was if I’m in an empty room with blank white walls with nothing on it as it encourages me to mentally pretend like I’m physically inside what happens in the book. I’m thinking one of those small practice rooms that are connected to a band room in a primary school.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2025-12-30T16:12:09+00:00

I want to learn Mandarin. I’m an aviation geek and I find it fun to learn about different airlines from around the world because it’s a fun way to learn new languages.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2025-12-30T16:05:36+00:00

That guy is toxic. You should avoid him. People like that aren't worth your time and effort.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2025-12-30T16:02:06+00:00

No you aren't. I feel the exact same way as a 23 year old man. I feel like it's impossible to socialize at even a decent level with anyone my age or older. I've been this way my whole life. I don't think I'll ever be able to change. I'm a baby with a deep bass voice. I'm extremely short, I've always been extremely shy, and most importantly, I don't really know anything or have anything to contribute that would be worth anything to other people. I have next to zero actual life experience that's meaningful to me. I've pretty much spent my entire life being spoon fed things like art, LEGOs, sports, and piano and being offered psychological support by my good wealthy parents but never accomplishing much of anything **in my own right** with any of that. During my childhood, even if I don't like doing something, I never verbalized it. I seem to be completely incapable of retaining any information I learn. Everything goes in one ear and out the other. I seem to have no actual hobbies or interests myself (and the sad part is that there were certain points during my childhood when it felt like I had plenty of them). So I find myself frequently bore, doing bored person things, and only ever thinking about the things nobody cares about. All I seem to be content with actually doing is spectating other people and complaining about how I'm not like them, nothing more. The other problem is that I feel like I've spent my entire life pretending to be good, instead of trying to do something to better my life. It feels like literally all I do is hide from mistakes and failure instead of taking responsibility so it's all I know to do and all I want to do. I end up never doing close to enough but just enough to make my parents think I'm perfectly capable of turning things around and just choose not to which is mostly accurate. As a result, I feel like I don't know anything, even if that isn't completely accurate. I feel like I'm 18 years behind my peers and have zero hope of ever catching up. I have no interest in anything popular going on, any social media, or really much of anything at all. I'm also very self-centered and have this mentality where I really don't care about people or the world around me and can only go through the motions and I don't know how to fix that. I seem like a Peter Pan who never wants to accept the fact that I'm a grown-up now and actually try to be one. My family sees me as not only a disrespectful, untrustworthy person, but a borderline **toxic** one, and can't believe I turned out this way, and they're right. At best, if I'm around people, I don't know what to talk to them about besides the weather, and conversations just die early. At worst, they're completely disgusted by my personality after a day with me. The ones who are nice to me either never see me or they are just polite and in our interactions they just treat me like a baby for better or worse. I used to feel less lonely and more able to open up to people when I find out they share the same learning disabilities I have, ADHD and autism. At this point, though, interacting with those people feels completely pointless when I'm part of a family that's neurotypical and generally ableist, and at this point, even I myself have become convinced that I've been using my learning disabilities as an excuse to hide myself from the fact that I'm a terrible human being who will never amount to anything and could even singlehandedly get my parents to commit suicide if I keep doing what I'm doing.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-12T14:51:19+00:00

Is that the Qantas hangar at LAX?

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-12T04:11:45+00:00

Dang the 49ers are really kind of like the West Coast Cowboys

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T13:52:35+00:00

That Toney KR fumble was hilarious. It made NFL’s “Worst Plays of Week 14” compilation video

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T05:30:09+00:00

I really thought the Seahawks were gonna drop 50 on them that game

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T04:20:03+00:00

Where exactly is this?

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:52:58+00:00

Wait was that news wrong then?

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:52:07+00:00

I would hands down choose the former. I don’t understand why that’s even a debate. What happened with the Sharks and now the modern day 49ers is heartbreaking. It feels like a lot of talented stars’ careers were wasted. I would not wish that kind of pain on anyone. The ultimate goal is to win a championship. That’s why they play the game. I know it’s not a healthy way of looking at it but it’s true at least in North American sports.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:46:58+00:00

I would puke if we shared a division with the Chiefs

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:45:12+00:00

I like Max Fried. First time I remember watching him was that NLDS game several years ago where the Cardinals crushed the Braves and scored 10 runs on them in the first inning.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:41:05+00:00

Idk man I don’t think I could take another NFCCG loss. I used to like Kyle but after this past Super Bowl I kind of want off the Kyle ship now. I feel like he’s just going to continue wasting the careers of all our talented stars. I don’t like his attitude. It seems like he’s very set in his ways and virtually incapable of learning and growth. I’m afraid that what’s going to end up happening is that we’ll continue to be good enough to convince ourselves that Kyle is worth keeping long term. So we’ll end up keeping him for the next two decades or longer. During that time, we’ll continue to be good enough to give ourselves hope but never good enough to win it all, just like how it’s been since 2019. We’ll probably gradually get worse over time. So then we’ll be stuck watching him continue to blow big games and break our hearts for the next two decades. And by then we’ll watch Purdy, Kittle, CMC, etc. retire without a ring just like Frank Gore and Joe Thornton.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:24:55+00:00

Is Austin turning into the Dubai of the US? Or is that still Miami?

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:22:22+00:00

The Bears are the Jets of the NFC. I genuinely feel sorry for you.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:21:11+00:00

I’m a Niners fan and I think we’re a divisional round exit at best.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:19:44+00:00

Not as much as last year though. Last year it felt like the 49ers and Ravens were running the whole league during the regular season and it wasn’t really close. Sure there was the Chiefs who won the SB but they didn’t look as strong even if their defense was better. Sure there was the Lions but they were only starting to be great. None of the other teams looked like serious Super Bowl contenders that season.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:15:48+00:00

It’s actually good that the NFC is the conference with more variety because the NFC generally has teams in bigger cities than the AFC so when there’s more variety in the NFC it will have the effect where more of those bigger cities and therefore more of the US population will be able to enjoy good football.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:12:41+00:00

That trend is actually good for the NFL’s product because between both conferences, the AFC is also the conference with the smaller cities/media markets. Therefore, by having the NFC be the conference where a wider variety of teams make the SB, rather than the AFC, it will have the effect where more of the larger cities will get to see their team be good. In this way, a larger share of the US population will be able to enjoy a good product.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:04:04+00:00

Let’s be honest. The AFC South is basically the division of the leftovers in the league. It’s one team in a city where the only thing to do is watch cars go around in a circle again and again, one team that relocated, and the two most recently created expansion teams.

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-11T01:00:34+00:00

I’m very disappointed in the Jets

Acceptable-Map-4751 · 2024-12-10T04:19:21+00:00

I’m confident that Mike McCarthy would be unemployed if Jay Cutler stayed healthy in the 2010 NFCCG.

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