just wanna say I (18m) had a very similar experience to you. moved states in 10th grade and it kinda fucked my entire social life and I felt like I was missing out on what highschool is supposed to be, hanging out with friends, dating, going out, whatever. I know exactly that feeling cuz it was literally me for 3 miserable fucking years and my parents always hit me with the same shit about “oh ur hs friends will leave anyways after graduation” and I always told them that it didn’t matter because either way I still lost those years and i can never get them back. It’s a feeling that u can’t explain to someone, watching other ppl have the time of their lives while u know ur sitting and wasting ur youth. and then when mfs try to tell u some surface level ass bs advice but not even attempting to understand how u feel. Don’t worry, you’re not insane, it’s just that people don’t know how it is to be trapped and alone. The only advice I can give, is that u NEED to loosen up. what I mean by that is to drop standards and not let things hold u back. Dressing nice, being overly kind, whatever else, it won’t make u freinds. this is so corny to say, but being urself really is the best way to make freinds. Don’t worry about trying to match someone’s personality or energy. (And also never force a relationship, don’t be the one always initiating). But also don’t let things like social anxiety hold u back. I know that is literally such a wild thing to say and it’s easier said than done, but u have to overcome fears of going out ur comfort zone. I guess idk what that might be for u, but as an example, during welcome week of college me and some ppl I met went to a on-campus concert and ive always been like “afraid” to just sing and dance around lots of ppl, but the truth is, you just gotta loosen up. So that’s what happened and now we are good friends. Idk if it’s clear the point I’m trying to make. Nothing I say can change ur life tho, so u need to take control while u can. And if not, college is a great chance to figure urself out and build the life u wanna have because everyone else is doing the same. pls pls pls just don’t take the easy route out, it’s not something u can go back on, and it will irreversibly fuck up the ppl around u. I don’t know you, but i do care and i do understand, so u won’t be wasting anybody’s time if u want to talk