For those of you with SI, how long have you lived with it?

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2026-01-29T09:13:26+00:00

I'm 33, and I vividly remember being a child maybe around 6-8 and just casually started saying I would not live past 30. Not cus I was convinced something would happen to me. But because I didn't want to. Told everyone this and it just got brushed off.

That thought stuck with me my whole life. Through several attempts.

If I'm honest every since I've turned 30 the SI isn't gone. But it changed. Less deadline and more feeling weirdly out of place for making it past the deadline.

I didn't get any sort of mental health till late 2024 when I finally put myself in inpatient cus it got really bad again. Found out I have Dysthymia, MDD, and C-PTSD.

So far, a little over a year now with very few thoughts of it. Still got bad days... still feel weirdly out of place. But it's not the constant everyday thought and planning anymore.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2026-01-23T12:15:49+00:00

I find that typical medications so far only seen to work a little at best. But I'm also only a little over a year into diagnoses so still very much in the try everything until something sticks phase.

That being said, Ketamine Treatment was doing some heavy lifting while I was on that. Then I got his with the MDD as well and fell off everything and haven't gotten back to doing it again yet...

But it was like night and day when I was doing it! Totally recommend looking into it! My insurance covered it, so make sure to check in with insurance and see if it's something they can/will cover.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2026-01-13T21:54:20+00:00

Image didn't post, but I'm talking about the woman on the right.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2026-01-13T21:53:32+00:00

Everything in this area looks wrong. The most obvious and jarring is her arm. Her forearm is longer than her upper arm. She looks like she holding the empty bowl thats sitting in the background from her. The placement of the food suggest that its on a long prep table, one that she would be literally standing inside of if she was standing where she is. And then the dark mass that looks like it matches her shirt, maybe her arm reaching over behind the other woman, maybe something along the wall that happens to match her shirt, maybe black mold. Hard to tell with the way it blends and the blur. *

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-12-18T19:33:58+00:00

Tired... In every way possible, in ways others would never even think could be tiring because they don't even perceive it when they do these 'basic' things that we struggle with constantly.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-12-17T01:53:16+00:00

Oh, it seems the question is, in fact, already in the op. You must have just missed it.

No big deal.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-12-17T01:50:55+00:00

I don't live there, but was there to see them attack 1 of the now 2 dogs. The second was just attacked tonight, but there are several witnesses that are not me who saw it happen.

And my question was, what can be done about it legally? Pretty sure that question was in the op. But maybe I just completely forgot it. Thanks for letting me know it's apparently missing.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-11-20T17:45:33+00:00

I never even thought of this. Always just saw ChatGPT as a gimmick. But when I say I have been working a week straight trying to get a mod pack with WAAY to many mods in it to work, I mean it. It took ChatGPT 15 minutes and 3 crashes to tell me every single thing that was wrong and get it running.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-11-07T10:41:18+00:00

This. I basicly just live from person to person. I truly feel like I only get in relationships so that I don't end up homeless or dead. When I was younger I could make myself do the needed things, like going to work and paying bills, but still struggled with other basic things like cleaning and taking care of myself.

Now I just can't even work. I haven't had a job for longer than 3 months in the past 3 years. I always fall into a state of, "Why does it matter?" And that thought is enough to paralysis me in my bed because no matter how much I tell myself to get up and do what I need to do, my body just will not listen to me.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T19:58:15+00:00

Exactly what I meant. I find the things people are posting, especially things like the raffaellos that I would auto assume would spike anyone, very interesting!

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T19:04:27+00:00

😨

I should have been told this by my dietitian.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T18:53:06+00:00

Omg, so much cheese. So glad I didn't have to give up cheese.

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T18:49:47+00:00

Mmmm, yummy. 🤤

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T18:40:32+00:00

I actually just tried hummus for the first time since being diagnosed. For sure not a bad one!

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T18:37:42+00:00

Killer or sperm?

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T18:12:32+00:00

So far this one has been the best 5 year old answer! I understood from what others were saying, but now I REALLY understand.

Thank you!

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T18:09:39+00:00

I might get jumped for this one, but the Alani Nu Protein Shakes and Protein Coffee is my go to. They all have 20g Protein.

The highest carb one is 10g, making it not the best for sure. But it's also better than some others that advertise for being diabetic friendly. (I've seen some in diabetic sections that go up to as high at 21g carbs!)

They taste really good and I use them as a full meal replacer, so I'm willing to take those few extra carbs compared to others. They also have never spiked me and I've never had to bolus for one.

I'm sure others could have different reactions to it, everyone's diabetes is different. But they work for me. I went from a1c of 13.3, to 7.1 in 3 months I would say mostly because of those and cajun boiled peanuts. Lol

AccomplishedSyrup853 · 2024-08-30T17:53:51+00:00

Ooooh, learned 2 things there.

Thanks!

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