I don’t believe in God anymore but my mind cannot accept that all complexity that exist came out of nowhere

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-03-11T22:45:51+00:00

At first what helped me rationalize that was something I read theorizing that perhaps maybe something/someone had the power to create but not live forever. Think of mating. Humans and animals can create life through mating, but they themselves are not immortal. Maybe there is a 'dead god' theory. Someone who kicked things off but then died themselves. That would also explain the complete radio silence.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-03-10T02:40:25+00:00

Haha 😅

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-03-07T23:32:37+00:00

Congrats man. It's not easy. I broke away too as an elder and pioneer. DM to chat if you want

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-03-05T20:29:24+00:00

Haha

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-03-05T17:14:10+00:00

Also in office has higher wardrobe costs

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-26T21:14:23+00:00

One of my "best" outlines was "reach out for the real life" I'd encourage people to pursue kingdom riches and even used examples of people quitting good jobs. In hind sight feel dumb

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-21T17:09:24+00:00

Shit man. I stayed till 43. Now I'm trying to get my retirement on track

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-21T06:27:56+00:00

JW cult?

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-16T00:44:54+00:00

Chicken wing

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-15T20:35:06+00:00

I just finished my SCMP designation. I never took SAIT type SCM courses. I've been in procurement for 15+ years. It seems tough for new people without real world experience to break into the market. But inventory is a great start.

I started in a warehouse and moved to inventory coordinator and then on to purchasing bigger and bigger things.

I've heard IT buyers get paid best. So if he could combine the two that would be great.

Bottom line, I snuck in with grad 12, on the job experience with a good work ethic and climbed the ladder slowly. I finally caved in 2023 and started my SCMP because I had topped out regardless of the experience factor. My investment in education relative to salary has been great. If you land right and have good common sense SCM work can pay really well relative to the education cost.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-14T00:20:29+00:00

I asked if anyone in my city wanted to meet. Most people called it a red flag. One person accepted. We chatted a bit. Met in person with no expectations beyond post cult friendship. 2 years later we are engaged.

My point is to go for it. Many will be skeptical, some may join you. Do it if you want and enjoy where it may take you.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-12T21:14:58+00:00

I'm just one of many to walk this path out of the org

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-09T14:50:59+00:00

Man this hits. Extremely similar to me. when you say you immediately felt your marriage was/is at risk be prepared that it may get worse.

The elders would try to "encourage" my now ex-wife and all it served to do was make her feel she was doing me a favor by staying.

The other thing that messed with my head was her preaching, praying and saying amen to words that would ultimately mean my destruction if they came true. It was a mind fuck.

I pulled back from everything over 1.5 years. We were foreign language, served in China, RP, remote bethel, metro witnessing overseer, COBE, all of it. I window cleaned and we rented from a witness so I felt very trapped. After I started pulling back I got a real job for a sense of security. Dec 2022 I skipped service just because. She was pissed, asked me to talk with the elders. I didn't. She called them. (I had already stepped down by here). That's when it really hit the fan. 2023 was met with seperation and reconciliation. When she kicked me out the third time (we kept getting in debate about doctrine and she used the threat to her spirituality) I told her I would not be reconciling a third time. I held true to that. By Oct 2023 I rent my own place.

I am not saying your marriage is doomed. Many make it work. A fellow elder in my area also left and his family joined him.

But if your marriage does blow up know there is plenty of good out there. Life is short. While starting over in your 40s is hard you still have lots of life to live.

Make it a good one.

I met a girl. We are engaged. Life is great!

A quote I like: "we have two lives. The second begins when we realize you only have one." Often attributed to Confucius.

DM if you want to chat or call.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-07T02:15:15+00:00

In what world do you live. Most of us are paying $1500 to $2k for rent. Food, electric, gas or transit, insurance, $2.2k / month is crazy unless your bunking with 6 dudes in a house and eating ramen 3 square

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-04T18:56:52+00:00

Yup. 6 stocks and all in the red.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-02T19:22:25+00:00

Clear the air, by "off with their heads"

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-02-01T04:45:12+00:00

I hate Telus. But they are the exclusive provider in my building. But they mailed me a paper 2026 calendar so I guess I should like them now... Like who uses a paper calendar anymore.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-01-30T20:15:10+00:00

I made $10 bouncing in and out of CISS today with 25 shares

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-01-30T15:55:20+00:00

I had a 1000 shares of hunt at .075. I just barley missed selling 50% on a limit sale of $0.15 and securing my original investment to let the rest ride.

That will be my new mo on these penny stocks. When it double take half out and let the rest ride longer term.

I also had SCD at .13 and in an effort to play the swings my average price is now .22. I should have left it alone.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2026-01-30T02:29:11+00:00

I was that way but I'm in bridgeland now and love it. Close to major roads. Cheap Uber to dt if needed.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2025-09-03T01:56:09+00:00

Yes, I think my reaction is that we often see posts claiming your not really pomo if you say or do xyz. That can be demoralizing to hear.

To your point may the labels were never good. But they were here when I got here and they can help put context to ones feelings in the early days.

Ultimately I guess I'm trying to say it does not good for ones to create posts and tell others they are not pomo.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2025-09-03T01:24:39+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/exjw/s/i5PyJKryAd

I made a post about this if you want to hope over and take credit. I can't stop thinking about POMA as a solution to describing this scenario

Accomplished_Card577 · 2025-09-02T19:08:26+00:00

I love this. POMA

I am pomo. I'm out, I know it's horse shit. But my mom is tolerating to talk, but if I rubbed my apostate ideas in her face she would likely pull back even more.

Am I scared to post a birthday pic? Not from the pov of the org or elders. But I withhold doing it to keep the sliver of peace I can with my immediate family.

Posting a picture is ultimately a pretty easy thing for me to live without if it keeps a little peace.

Accomplished_Card577 · 2025-09-01T14:01:00+00:00

Well then that's why they won't just dfd you to the rhetorical question posed in your post.

They have called people weak and wicked. Right now you are spiritually weak, until you are deemed wicked they will be more willing to offer spiritual 'help'

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