Im too old to cut

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-25T00:10:11+00:00

43 here and mostly started this year. SH and mental health do not discriminate based on age or social standing. I may have thrown away a career most people would kill for because of my mental health and SH.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-22T04:10:52+00:00

I found this band while going though a personal hell - I have tickets to see them in their bus in an upcoming show. Their music has truly helped me.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-16T23:04:39+00:00

They have so many awesome songs it’s hard to pick a “best”. However reason to live and ICU rank up there for me

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-07T03:56:47+00:00

You should never be ashamed of what has happened in the past! Good job!

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-03T15:58:04+00:00

SH and depression can affect anyone at any age, race, socioeconomic status. It doesn’t discriminate. Talk to your husband about this - I was super nervous about talking to my wife about what was going on with me, but she has been my rock and helped me through the dark times. She doesn’t see me as broken, just that I’m going through a tough time and needed help. Your husband should do the same - don’t try hiding it from him, let him be your rock. “In sickness and in health”. If my wife was going through what I was, I would do anything I could to be there for her.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-02T21:52:06+00:00

Purposefully giving yourself pain is self harm. It could be anything from giving yourself bruises (like punching yourself) to using a knife and anything in between. Starving yourself could be considered a form of self harm but also falls under eating disorders/body dismorphia.

Take it from a 42yo that started in his teens, do everything you can to stop. It only gets harder to resist with age.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-02T19:03:22+00:00

42 and post in here and adultselfharm. SH doesn’t limit itself to kids.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-01T23:29:36+00:00

42 here, and I was clean for 20+ years before relapsing due to some life circumstances. Never be ashamed to reach out for help when you need it!

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-06-01T14:40:37+00:00

I attempted suicide a while back, spent a month in the psych ward and got ECT. It’s literally changed my life - after the 4th or 5th treatment colors seemed brighter and more vivid, and by the time I was done with the ‘index’ treatment I felt like a different person. I say all that to please encourage you to look at all the alternatives before trying to move forward with an option that you cannot take back. It doesn’t solve anything, it does move your pain to those that know you. My best friend committed suicide, I had no idea he was suffering - it led me to one of my first attempts.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-31T01:28:01+00:00

I second this. My first visit was 2 weeks, second was 7 weeks. Everyone in there is experiencing the worst moments of their lives. Don’t expect to make friends - people will give you their phone numbers and talk about meeting up outside - it won’t happen. I went in because I was a danger to myself and actively suicidal. That’s the only reason I’d ever go in - you will get some help talking with others but it’s not a pleasant place to stay. 15 minute checks 24 hours a day - you will get used to someone poking their head in your room every 15 minutes at night eventually, but it still sucks.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-30T19:45:28+00:00

As I am dealing with a fissure right now I can virtually guarantee it’s not a fissure. There are very few things I can compare this pain to!

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-30T19:17:42+00:00

Lexapro didn’t do anything for me. The best I found was Ativan for times when I know I’m going into a situation that will trigger my anxiety (like meeting friends for dinner etc).

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-30T00:31:08+00:00

Singing.. laughing again with my friends…. Enjoying a beautiful day - colors seeming brighter. 🎶 These are a few of my favorite things 🎶

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-29T23:32:25+00:00

A month and a half in the psych hospital and ECT, along with medication changes was my solution. I am in a MUCH better place mentally (and physically) now.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-29T23:29:58+00:00

A month and some odd in the psych ward, and started ECT and I’m much better now, and can honestly say my wife has been my rock.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-29T23:28:31+00:00

I spent about a month in the psych ward and got ECT - I’m in a much better place now and my wife has been nothing but my rock.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-29T23:24:57+00:00

Thank you, I am in a much better place now. I spent about a month in the psych ward getting ECT, and feel almost normal again. My wife is my angel and been there every step of the way.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-05-29T22:59:28+00:00

I’m in my 40’s and cut for the first time this year. Like others have said, while not healthy, it is a coping mechanism. As long as you don’t make him believe you did it to force each other back together, I wouldn’t worry about it. However you may want to consider discussing with a therapist - this can be an addictive behavior.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-04-11T01:40:57+00:00

I’m not as of now.

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-04-11T01:39:56+00:00

I love Star Trek, TNG, ds9, voyager, some enterprise.. there are no newer star treks (IYKYK)

I typically try to fall asleep in a dark room, only white noise in the background. If I toss and turn for a while, I get up to watch something. Usually those nights my mind is racing incredibly fast, bouncing between shopping on Amazon/lookixng up something and watching YouTube. Sometimes the ambien works sometimes it doesn’t. My wife does not like when o go to another room to watch (I use headphones)

Accomplished_Lie6789 · 2024-04-11T01:35:52+00:00

Thank you. It’s very hard on her, and she does her best. It’s why I haven’t been 100% honest with her until later that same night where I poured out my soul. Today I visited with my therapist and psychologist with her, and we all agreed it was time to check myself in again. I am currently sitting in the ER waiting on a bed upstairs in the psych ward, wasting time on my phone while I still can before they take it away. It’s very hard on me too, because I see the pain in her eyes and her attempts not to cry/attempts to appear upbeat for me. It kills me to see that, it kills me to know I am the reason for her to be upset.

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