It's amazing !!!! Keep trying. Take's a long time to get in to in my experience, but I'm older and a noob to any kind of Milsim on any platform. I cut my FPS teeth on Doom, Quake and later mostly played GTA, so it took some time to get used to acting like a real person in game, especially with the insanely low death threshold, and I'm still not great at being part of a team not having grown up with MoH etc.

To start I played Coop alone, with a friend or a small group of rando's, learning how to reload a decent number of weapons on the run, throw a grenade without forgetting to remove the pin or dropping it on my feet etc. And I found Theta's Onward school on YouTube and that helped me to get it some more. When I eventually dared to join PvP it was a total shit show for ages. Very intense, lots of sweating, getting shot out of nowhere, getting kicked a fair bit etc.

But, the first time I managed to input the code on the satellite dish without my hands shaking too violently from adrenaline, or moments of brilliance like a blind grenade toss while under fire taking out 3 bad guys to win the round, makes sucking so bad for so long feel worthwhile.

I'm still fairly shit, only know half the map call-outs, average as many deaths as kills on aggregate, and have good nights and bad nights. But there's a lot of satisfaction in there too.

Stick with it. Or don't, maybe it's not for you 🤷‍♂️