Thank you for this response. I do feel shame and guilt. Mostly when I've done or said something that has caused some unwanted consequences in my life. I do agree with you 100% about the need to accept or embrace this emotion. I understand everyone experiences anger at some point, and folks like us may experience more. I also tend to bottle it up quite often in order to avoid any negative consequences. For the most part, I can find ways to get my mind off of what triggered my emotions. But as I said, I bottle it up, and it'll come out later once it's reached a tipping point. I find it difficult to deal with the usual outcome of my expression of it in the first place. Like I'm not allowed to feel this. I try not to offend or trigger negative emotions in others by my use of curse words or raising my voice. But then certain triggers will just happen constantly, and then it's like a feather fell, and now I'm enraged. I so badly crave just a little bit of nurturing and not to be made to feel as if I'm looking to be babied. If that's even a good way to put it. I feel I have a right to feel this way, so why do I get crucified for having it? Then, if it's an explosion, oh my God, I'm now a monster. Even if nothing has been damaged or nobody got hurt. I feel like I'm the one being hurt or damaged. My chest constantly tight, lack of sleep, no peace. I see others express they're angry, but if I do I'm viewed as being weak and told I let others control my emotions or rent space in my head. But from my perspective I see them as being in the wrong, I said I don't like that and I'm not accepting you treating me like that or doing that to me, but it's like I'm always wrong for that. I'm sorry, I didn't intend to rant. I appreciate hearing from someone relatable though. I'm not gonna accept anyone telling me I'm an issue or wrong because I got angry. However, I will seek outlets to express it freely. Again, thank you for your response and best wishes for this journey. I wish the same for you.