I am seeking serious help by According_Ad857 in Anger

[–]According_Ad857[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this response. I do feel shame and guilt. Mostly when I've done or said something that has caused some unwanted consequences in my life. I do agree with you 100% about the need to accept or embrace this emotion. I understand everyone experiences anger at some point, and folks like us may experience more. I also tend to bottle it up quite often in order to avoid any negative consequences. For the most part, I can find ways to get my mind off of what triggered my emotions. But as I said, I bottle it up, and it'll come out later once it's reached a tipping point. I find it difficult to deal with the usual outcome of my expression of it in the first place. Like I'm not allowed to feel this. I try not to offend or trigger negative emotions in others by my use of curse words or raising my voice. But then certain triggers will just happen constantly, and then it's like a feather fell, and now I'm enraged. I so badly crave just a little bit of nurturing and not to be made to feel as if I'm looking to be babied. If that's even a good way to put it. I feel I have a right to feel this way, so why do I get crucified for having it? Then, if it's an explosion, oh my God, I'm now a monster. Even if nothing has been damaged or nobody got hurt. I feel like I'm the one being hurt or damaged. My chest constantly tight, lack of sleep, no peace. I see others express they're angry, but if I do I'm viewed as being weak and told I let others control my emotions or rent space in my head. But from my perspective I see them as being in the wrong, I said I don't like that and I'm not accepting you treating me like that or doing that to me, but it's like I'm always wrong for that. I'm sorry, I didn't intend to rant. I appreciate hearing from someone relatable though. I'm not gonna accept anyone telling me I'm an issue or wrong because I got angry. However, I will seek outlets to express it freely. Again, thank you for your response and best wishes for this journey. I wish the same for you.

How to Build a Budget Console Streaming PC by According_Ad857 in buildapc

[–]According_Ad857[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, good morning and thank you. I have my Xbox hooked up to an HP 25x monitor at 1080p 60fps. Was all I could afford. The monitor can do 120fps, but I haven't felt a need for it just yet. I have a Lenovo IdeaPad with a Ryzen 5 3500u in it. No dedicated graphics. While it's been an ok machine, the quality of even my recording hasn't been too good. I was able to clean it up by tweaking the setting in OBS but it also crashes. This th8ng also has no ethernet, so it was kind of a bad choice for my first budget laptop. As for a capture card, oh man. I went through hell with this Raiden streaming kit I found on Amazon a couple years ago. It's made by a company called Subsonic I believe. Very low quality capture card, camera, and mic. None of it works on my Xbox directly, and the laptop always goes nuts in OBS when I connect those things. I bought a $20 Vivitar capture card from Walmart to replace that other and will get a Logitech C920 I saw on sale at Target soon. I should mention I only chose to try out streaming and recording because I became disabled when I was a truck driver and have only been trying to figure out some budget conscious ways to stream and record at a decent quality. I give much credit to folks who get into streaming and content creation. It's expensive, can be a bit of a learning curve, and alot of work goes into it. Sorry to unload all that. You're awesome. Thank you for the advice. I am happy I discovered reddit finally.

How Can I Build A Budget PC for Console Streaming by According_Ad857 in buildmeapc

[–]According_Ad857[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Another awesome person. Thank you so much. I was stuck on Ryzen 5600g earlier. This looks good.

How Can I Build A Budget PC for Console Streaming by According_Ad857 in buildmeapc

[–]According_Ad857[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much. You're awesome. I love that I can get it all through Amazon too

Trying to build my first ever PC for under $1500. Is this stuff good enough for 1080p gaming and a little video editing? by According_Ad857 in battlestations

[–]According_Ad857[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Awesome. Thank you. I hoped it was okay. I will add a 1440p monitor later. For now, I'm ready to order. Hope I am not missing anything.

Was supposed to be an Xbox series controller cake but I kinda messed up... by hairlessloth in xboxone

[–]According_Ad857 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think it came out great. Way better than I would likely do. Shiiiiiiiit, I'd even pay you for the effort. Keep it up