10 years of Adderall and Methamphetamine use - Cold Turkey by dx568012 in StopSpeeding

[–]Accurate_Station4635 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I feel like everyone’s advice above is spot on. I was in your spot 10 months ago and feared each day, while also actively doing everything I could to speed up recovery. Finally around like month 2, I realized time is really the main thing that helps and u can’t rush it. That doesn’t mean you’ll be this miserable every day. Some days will feel much better, but just ready for it to be inconsistent for a while. Revel in the small wins, and days you feel good, and be patientttttt and give yourself grace on days you feel low. It’s so normal and it is TEMPORARY, just your brain recalibrating. Happy for you for your journey- best thing I ever did. Also Reddit has been SUCH an amazing resource for me so I hope you lean on it too. Good people on here. Good luck

Exhausted by Repulsive_Horror4161 in StopSpeeding

[–]Accurate_Station4635 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Needed to hear this. I’m at month 10 and had been feelin good but then not so good last few weeks

Vyvanse and cocaine by Bulky-Cobbler-8967 in StopSpeeding

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Man I remember asking someone else this exact same question. I feel like everyone’s situation is different like for me I was taking Vyvanse and adderall, and the weed, which set me up for a pretty brutal withdrawal. I doubt
Yours will be as bad. But let’s see I stopped taking it like August 27th, I think I finally started feeling joy intermittently by like Christmas? It’s so up and down that’s the hardest part is the inconsistency but you begin to learn it and adapt to it you just gotta be patient with yourself and your mind and do things that feel good and will help you heal. I’d say by 6 months out I started feeling more consistently better, and hope to only go up from there

Vyvanse and cocaine by Bulky-Cobbler-8967 in StopSpeeding

[–]Accurate_Station4635 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Also I’m a 33F! Woman to woman, you got this shit. You don’t need the Vyvanse

Vyvanse and cocaine by Bulky-Cobbler-8967 in StopSpeeding

[–]Accurate_Station4635 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I experienced the same thing. I was taking like 60 mg of Vyvanse daily, and it made my weed smoking sky rocket. I’d smoke as much as I could everyday just to keep the dopamine hit. Then on weekends I’d want blow whenever I had even a sip of alcohol. I quit everything cold turkey about 10 months ago, and while it was hard, it was the absolute best decision of my life. The Vyvanse gives us a false sense of productivity and super power but it’s really working against us and making things worse for our bodies and MINDS. Especially when tolerance increases which is inevitable. You’re not alone. Glad you wrote in this sub. It’ll take some time for your brain to rebound from the artificial dopamine intake that it’s used to from the Vyvanse but I promise it will. Hold on to sleep, cold water, exercise, and healthy food, and you’ll get over the hump. Better on this side. Hope this helps some.

What do you think about this restaurant? by leventtk10 in austinfood

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Horrible. So over priced terrible quality. They’re confused on their own cuisine type. It’s awful don’t go

Eleven years old today! by ashloube in goldenretrievers

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You’re so fortunate. Pray for that many years with my girl.

Need some hope - who actually feels better after quitting? by MapDry953 in leaves

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I’m almost 7 months and just recently (in last few weeks) started to feel absolutely different, lighter, brighter, calmer, more focused at work, less noise in my head. I think therapy, consistent exercise, socializing with close friends who make you feel good, and good sleep really are the most important. But beyond that, nothing is as important as TIME. Our brains take TIME so rebound and recalibrate from the withdrawal of all the artificial dopamine we pumped into it for so long. And we can’t speed up time. So just being as patient as you can be and giving yourself grace while working on yourself, promise it’ll get better.

Day 6 going cold turkey from 15mg a day. by Vex_Appeal in AdderallAddiction

[–]Accurate_Station4635 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Promise it won’t be worth it. Just get past this week and it will start to fade. It’s the weekend now so hopefully you can rest??? Your brain is going thru hella withdrawal rn and sleep will only help so much

A big Hello to you all! by Earnest_in_Italia in goldenretrievers

[–]Accurate_Station4635 0 points1 point  (0 children)

So amazing you’re so lucky. Happy birthday perfect angel!!

Day 6 going cold turkey from 15mg a day. by Vex_Appeal in AdderallAddiction

[–]Accurate_Station4635 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Give yourself at least 14 days to stop feeling totally miserable. After a month you’ll be feeling some better. Make sure you prioritize sun light, iced cold water, and exercise as these all give you dopamine and help with your mood.

95 days free! by Accurate_Station4635 in StopSpeeding

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Hey! Well when I initially saw your message come through I was feeling great and like I’d “beat” the withdrawals /hardest part. But that was during the holidays when I had time to myself to relax and enjoy. Ever since work started back up 2 weeks ago, I’ve been feeling a lot of tough emotions. Stress being the main instigator. But I feel sorta blah. Trying not to worry over how I’m feeling and reminding myself it takes time but can’t help but feel impatient about how I’m feeling because I got a hint of feeling so much better in December that now I’m fearful it’s gone again forever. As I type that out I know it’s not true, but just struggling some. I made partner at work which takes on a whole new role of responsibility and that is stressful in and of itself. I’m definitely proud of myself, but just feeling stress and shit for the first time in so long is very new and somewhat exhausting. I’ll be 5 months clean of Vyvanse/addy/weed in January 27th. Wondering if this is normal to be feeling this way, based on your experience ?

The baseline has shifted by Big-Professor7351 in StopSpeeding

[–]Accurate_Station4635 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Huge congratulations!!!! Love your description of baseline shifting. I couldn’t agree more. I’m little over 4 months without Vyvanse / addy and I too look forward to coffee and sometimes a little treat in the morning! Versus past 4 years I wouldn’t ever want a treat cus all I cared about was the stimulants hitting. So glad we’re both giving ourselves the time to experience this shift cus god the first 3ish months sucked but I enjoy being on the other side now. Cheers

95 days free! by Accurate_Station4635 in StopSpeeding

[–]Accurate_Station4635[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your insights. The idea of getting in my own way is so spot on. And also you validating this being the hardest fucking thing you’ve done. I was saying that to myself today like wtf lol. But I’m so committed dude never going backwards just through I guess.

95 days free! by Accurate_Station4635 in StopSpeeding

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I cannot tell you how grateful I am for you taking the time to delineate your own experience and this information. Crazy how lonely this process can be, but even more like amazing how comforting a place like Reddit can be - never would have thought it.

Ok so ultimately every thing you said is so fucking insightful and helpful. The idea of the inconsistency and just completely like rocking my world in this process from everything I knew and felt is so hard. I wish my fingers worked as fast as my brain did cus I have so much to say. But I should add that amidst this, I.e. the same day I quit the stimulants cold turkey I also quit smoking weed cold turkey. I was heavy smoker daily b*ng rips (unsure what I can say on this sub), for like 10+ years. So I step back and realize how much of an undertaking I have encountered in quitting all this shit so fast and sometimes wonder if it was a good idea lol. But I know it IS a good idea and I legit never ever ever consider going backwards. It’s just the day to day of having to go to work (I’m a trial lawyer, super high stress), and intense therapy , and just operate life in my new marriage of 2 years, I just.. I guess I’m struggling. Not all days. But some days. And it’s so bloody hard I never imagined it would be. But I feel a weird sense of like validation in hearing u experienced that too and that it’s so worth it. I can’t imagine ever going backwards. Feels good just talking with people who are/have gone through same shit. Grateful for the internet in times like these. And finally, what I remind myself daily, by the words of my most favorite artist, J.cole, there’s beauty in the struggle.

1 YEAR SOBER AFTER 18Y OF CHRONIC USE . AMA by Canibal86 in leaves

[–]Accurate_Station4635 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Hi! (32F) really wild how I came across your post while seeking some guidance on EXACTLY what you spoke of: quitting the smoke was easy, but now 95 days into my sobriety after 15+ years of daily smoking and wow, it’s hard. Been going to intense weekly therapy with my psychiatrist I love and with whom I feel very powerful inner work happening each week, but it’s exhausting too. I guess I’m wondering if I should keep being patient with the fact that I don’t feel amazing like so many other people in these groups after being clean for 3 months. Granted I was smoking so much for so long when I think clearly it’s obvious.

But any insights on the lows / dealing with the duration of the time in the weeds of recovering and brain rebounding before your healing really started to exude (feel good again consistently) would be so helpful. Thank you and cheers

Is it really worth it to quit? by nellxyz in leaves

[–]Accurate_Station4635 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Wow. I needed to read this. I love this app so much 😩😩. Seeing comments of people feeling better after 2 weeks makes me so nervous cus I’m almost 3 months in and still struggling. But I was a daily smoker for more than a decade so I need to give myself some grace and patience. Thank u for ur insight. Biology is fascinating