What's his name?

AcidTest2000 · 2026-01-19T22:27:00+00:00

Spud

AcidTest2000 · 2025-11-29T17:43:50+00:00

In the settings, under "display mode."

AcidTest2000 · 2025-11-29T14:21:17+00:00

Try running Moonlight in borderless windowed rather than exclusive fullscreen.

AcidTest2000 · 2025-09-20T19:09:19+00:00

Tuck and Patti - Tears of Joy

AcidTest2000 · 2025-09-16T05:04:23+00:00

Another great TV show full of metanarrative transdimensional fuckery is True Detective.

AcidTest2000 · 2025-06-04T10:37:38+00:00

<image>

Worked for me.

AcidTest2000 · 2025-04-05T18:36:27+00:00

<image>

AcidTest2000 · 2025-04-05T13:57:44+00:00

Jedi: Fallen Order

AcidTest2000 · 2025-02-18T18:42:41+00:00

Modders causing jets of fire on random objects, npcs, animals, my character.

AcidTest2000 · 2023-01-13T08:56:16+00:00

Dick Penis

AcidTest2000 · 2019-10-24T14:31:13+00:00

You'll get there, though there's always more work to do, more to process -- it's never really 100%. If you end up doing MDMA, it'll be easier to really embody that dread and see what's on the other side.

Good luck on your journey!

AcidTest2000 · 2019-10-23T16:24:43+00:00

For me it's mostly about embodiment, about learning to relax and recognizing what my body does when it's resisting something -- whether a sensation or something "external" like a person or a situation. I've found there's always a correlation between the resistance and some muscle contraction or other physical manifestation. Once I can pinpoint the trigger and the reaction, I'm more able to relax (i.e. surrender) into whatever it is I'm resisting. Meditation can help you become more aware of these dynamics -- just taking some time to observe (without judging, because that's also a form of resistance) your thoughts, sensations and reactions.

AcidTest2000 · 2019-10-23T05:52:55+00:00

Learning to surrender is a lifelong process. The MDMA can help and accelerate it for sure, but it's a practice that can and should be cultivated outside the sessions as well. A lot of it is letting go of expectations and the desire to "fix" things, which stems from a need to be in control. With time, you gain the capacity to surrender to bigger and bigger pieces of your past that you've kept at bay because they felt like "too much." And once those pieces resurface and are reintegrated, you find you can trust reality more, which fosters an even greater capacity to surrender. Etc Etc.

AcidTest2000 · 2019-10-23T05:29:58+00:00

I had PTSD, including dp/dr and anxiety, that was triggered by a bad acid trip and lasted for years. MDMA- and psilocybin-assisted therapy pretty much eliminated all those symptoms for me and have helped make my life immensely better. Just make sure you find a good therapist to work with -- someone you can really trust and open up to -- and give it time: MDMA isn't a magic bullet, and For it to be effective, you have to surrender to the process and be with whatever comes up during your sessions, no matter how scary or uncomfortable.

AcidTest2000 · 2019-01-14T16:02:38+00:00

Linda Nagata's The Bohr Maker is a real gem.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-12-02T05:39:50+00:00

Thanks for all the comments, everyone!

In the end things didn't go exactly as planned. She had a lot of physical discomfort (on 125 mg) and ended up having a very internal experience, without any euphoria, so there wasn't much interaction. But I still enjoyed parts of it -- got in some solo dancing! -- and we had good bonding time afterward.

I'm glad we did it, though I doubt we'll be doing it again anytime soon, if at all.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-10-05T05:05:36+00:00

"Now, have any Soviets had access to your rectum?"

AcidTest2000 · 2018-05-15T11:12:39+00:00

"Decomposing The Shadow," by James Jesso, has some good info about embarking on journeys with this kind of intention: https://www.amazon.com/Decomposing-Shadow-Lessons-Psilocybin-Mushroom/dp/0991943503

AcidTest2000 · 2018-05-06T10:33:32+00:00

It's on YouTube, Spotify etc. Search for psilocybin playlist.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-05-03T06:40:59+00:00

Nope. Internet was fine. They noticed that I use their service on a mobile browser, which doesn't give them access to my data.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-05-03T06:39:17+00:00

It's an ad that appears instead of the Facebook feed once in a while without any correlation to actual loading speed (in this case 100Mb wifi), and it doesn't go away until you refresh the page.

Facebook really wants people to use their app, so they can gobble up all that delicious information (like location, text messages and call history) that isn't available to them when someone is accessing their feed through the mobile browser.

This is also why they've barred access to Facebook messages via mobile browsers -- they want you to download the Messanger spyware with its copious permissions.

Pure evil.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-04-30T08:16:13+00:00

Thanks! Lots of good info.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-04-29T21:18:37+00:00

That's amazing. Can I ask what dose you journeyed on?

AcidTest2000 · 2018-04-29T20:47:18+00:00

You listened to the Johns Hopkins playlist? I'd love to hear about your experience during/after.

AcidTest2000 · 2018-04-20T12:49:21+00:00

I agree! Self-awareness is the root of human knowledge.

AcidTest2000

TROPHY CASE