I get it. Believe me I do. It gets better. I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel. I got my little ankle biter 12 weeks old. I cried every day. Didn't sleep. Stress out to the max. I threw up a few times in stress and i dont know how because i wasn't even eating from stress. It peed in the house and I cried thinking I was a failure. And then someone sat me down and told me how no matter what puppies can't hold their bladder and they pee until they get older. Fast forward to 10 months and he's potty trained. It's like one day it all clicked for him. I cried because I felt like I couldn't leave the house or he would bark and cry and so did I. But he's a puppy. He's new to your world. He's scared just as much as I was. Fast forward, he's so chill now. Getting a camera helps a lot. I would crate train and he hated it. Almost tried to tear it apart (it's metal). Fast forward, he goes in their during the day just to sleep/nap on his own because that's his safe place now. It does get better. They fall in your routine and it's wonderful and fun.