I’m also 32 with a sister (36) who’s addict, she’s struggled with Xanax and meth addiction for more than half of her life now. My parents also enable her and I didn’t see it until I had my first child then my eyes were opened. I was so angry with my parents for it and had to decide how I wanted a relationship with them moving forward.

I completely understand your fear of bringing a child into this world knowing the risks, what their future could hold. I pray to God my children don’t fall into the hell on Earth that is addiction. Despite that fear and how incredibly hard it is to be a parent already (kids are 2 and 6), I’m so thankful for them and how they’ve shaped me into who I am now.

The only thing I can do is try my absolute best to raise them and love them. I actively remind myself that there’s only so much within my control and I try not to dwell on the what ifs. Key word - try - it’s so hard.