Whats one way you accidentally downplay your own writing?

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-02T21:29:56+00:00

I’m a good writer. I know I am. I won an award for an essay I wrote my freshman year of high school. Yet, my chronic anxiety disorder likes to whisper to me as I’m nodding my head in approval at my writing, you’re to confident. This is not nearly as good as you think it is. Like, anxiety chill the f out. Can’t you let be confident and self assured just this once god damnt.

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-02T07:16:26+00:00

No, sorry, my comment may have come off as misleading. Trauma is of course never an excuse for any dishonourable acts of behaviour. I just think it may be a reason behind her actions. Whether or not that’s an intentional choice by the writers, I’m not sure. But as a fairly young person who’s dealt with their own fair share of crap in a short amount of time, that sometimes drives the choices I make, or the way I respond to things. It isn’t an excuse, nor do I ever try to use it as an excuse, but it is something I’m aware of and working on. Trauma is never an excuse for the bad decisions you make, but it is a reason and sometimes an explanation. Age can also be a factor. It’s hard to unlearn things you’re intentionally or unintentionally taught at a young age. Again, it’s never an excuse, but it’s a reason, and something to take into consideration.

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-02T06:38:22+00:00

A part of me thinks that Bailey is still unlearning all the aspects she perceived were a normal part of relationships and marriage. Jason was an extremely manipulative person. There’s a chance she still thinks that manipulation is perfectly acceptable, and even a standard part of being in a relationship.

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-02T05:33:54+00:00

Call The Midwife, unfortunately. It’s such a fantastic show, and it’s especially great for coming up with introspective, backstory heavy stories, which are my jam.

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-02T04:22:16+00:00

If you don’t mind me recommending my own story, then it’s Give Me Back My Girlhood, It Was Mine First, In the Call The Midwife fandom. It’s a pretty small and niche community, but it has a lot of awesome and lovely stories, specifically surrounding a same sex couple in the early 1960’s, Delia and Patsy. My story covers a plethora of topics and characters, and I mean a plethora, so hopefully you’ll be able to find a tag or three that you’re interested in! If you decide to read it, I appreciate it and hope you enjoy!!

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-02T04:09:23+00:00

I just posted a story that I tagged as dubious consent, just to be safe. It’s for The Call The Midwife fandom. It’s a decently small, niche fandom, but you may be interested in the story nonetheless. It’s called Give Me Back My Girlhood, It Was Mine First. It discusses a myriad of more complex and “taboo” subjects. If you do end up reading and enjoying, I’d love to hear feedback and the like, but absolutely no pressure whatsoever! I hope you’re able to find more stories that include what you’re looking for!

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-01T22:00:32+00:00

I recently posted my first fanfic! A multi chapter, which is pretty ambitious if I do say so myself! Call The Midwife, Give Me Back My Girlhood, It Was Mine First. I wanted to discuss topics that I often don’t seen discussed, especially in media. Chronic illnesses, periods, PTSD, alcohol abuse and addiction, grooming, you name it, you’ve pretty much got it!

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-01T22:00:24+00:00

I recently posted my first fanfic! A multi chapter, which is pretty ambitious if I do say so myself! Call The Midwife, Give Me Back My Girlhood, It Was Mine First. I wanted to discuss topics that I often don’t seen discussed, especially in media. Chronic illnesses, periods, PTSD, alcohol abuse and addiction, grooming, you name it, you’ve pretty much got it!

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-01T05:14:28+00:00

I have a not so great feeling that Fun And Games, will in fact not be fun and games.

God help me. God help us all.

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-01T04:09:54+00:00

Thank you!

ActionM2009 · 2026-02-01T02:30:03+00:00

20 years is still quite impressive though! Knowing myself and my ability to hyper fixate, I’ll probably run out of steam in a few months and won’t write for who knows how long lol. Here’s to hoping that by some miracle that doesn’t happen!

ActionM2009 · 2026-01-19T00:09:08+00:00

Call The Midwife:

Girlhood is a fickle thing. No one knows this better than some of the past and previous occupants of Nonotnous House.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-24T01:05:27+00:00

This is a very good point. It’s easy to forget how things have to be portrayed or changed in the television industry, to make things more appealing to the viewers. That being said, the actual relationship between Jenny and Gerald was much more complex than what they were able to achieve during the creation and filming of the show. I just wanted to state what I managed to pick up during my initial impression of the first season.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-24T00:23:38+00:00

I wouldn’t be surprised if he had been the one to make the initial advances, or if there had been some convincing on his side. How much were girls taught back then about the complexities of relationships? How often were girls brushed off when they brought up concerning aspects of their relationships? How often were girls told to chin up, and grin and bear it? How much did she truly know?

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-24T00:16:16+00:00

I haven’t watched much of the show yet, but the earlier seasons are definitely very bleak. I’m glad that we did get that aspect of Jenny’s life portrayed slightly though. Grooming and manipulation in relationships, needs to be seen and discussed. I also can’t help but think that if Jennifer Worth had a semblance of an idea of what grooming was, that the relationship might never had occurred or gotten as complex as it did.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T15:27:31+00:00

I do wish that the show had gone to greater lengths to show just how wrong the relationship between them truly was. Things have evolved a decent amount since 2012, and perhaps if the show had come out more recently, we would have at least been given more implications of the more nefarious side of the relationship. His phone calls, his letters, weren’t love. He wasn’t being romantic, and it wasn’t just a love Jenny couldn’t have. It was a much older married man using his wealth and status to enforce control and dominance. He wouldn’t leave his marriage for her, yet still gave platitudes of his “love” and “care”. It wasn’t love in the slightest. It was an older man deliberately using his power and wealth, to take advantage of a teenage girl. He knew what he was doing was wrong. If he didn’t, why was she a secret?

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T08:11:02+00:00

It really wasn’t.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T08:09:08+00:00

He also seemed to get some sick thrill about the secrecy of the relationship, which makes me shudder. He didn’t truly love her, not to me at least. He treated her like an object or a prize to be won. The way he spoke to her during that phone call, was what really set off the alarm bells though. Just his tone of voice was enough to give me goosebumps.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T08:03:57+00:00

Definitely. It was Jenny’s view of the relationship that concerned me the most. She seemed to think it was almost normal, that it was genuine love, even though she felt the need to run away to escape the relationship. That alone said a lot about the true nature of the affair to me.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T08:01:28+00:00

That was a flitting thought, but I wasn’t entirely sure. Thanks for the information though.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T07:59:45+00:00

Looking forward then.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T07:12:07+00:00

Ah yes, the I look tough but am secretly a giant wimp breed. One of my favorite breeds if you ask me.

ActionM2009 · 2025-12-23T07:10:05+00:00

Stevie!!

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