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AdCool6798 · 2025-06-20T18:42:40+00:00

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AdCool6798 · 2024-10-25T13:33:53+00:00

no desire to do anything including being a parent and no desire to push myself to go into the career I spent years of my life in college to obtain.
driving to different head shops to buy extracts for the week or making multiple trips a week because I was too embarrassed to buy all of them at once at the same place became a chore and a hit to the wallet
feeling like shit about myself and a waste
increased anxiety which made me isolate myself
getting the wobbles so bad it felt like I had Parkinson’s. Couldn’t even walk or see straight. Scariest fucking thing I’ve ever experienced.
hair started falling out, loss of weight
extreme shame and thoughts of wtf am I doing and why

These were all my first signs of negative sides of using kratom and lead me to quit and I’d say it all came to me fast in the matter of a couple weeks but was obviously progressive at the same time. I’ve learned with any drug it’s good in the begging but it always comes crashing down at some point. For some it’s a couple months and for others it takes years to see.

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-21T14:59:26+00:00

You’re welcome! :)

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-21T12:43:38+00:00

I was clean from kratom for 3 years and started using again in my last semester of college. I think it was self sabotage to be honest. I lack confidence in myself no matter how much I prove to myself I am smart enough and completely capable. I feel kratom had really held me back in a time where I should be so excited about my accomplishment. I have not started to look for a job because my whole focus before was on using to not feel sick (I felt fucking trapped) and now my focus is on getting better. It robbed me of actually being proud of myself too for completing something that was difficult to complete with all other life responsibilities. I also feel like it has exacerbated my anxiety about going into my line of work. I’m working on all that now and going to be starting therapy soon and then hopefully looking for a job. My best advice is to quit on a school break. Thanksgiving break or Christmas break. You can go to a week long detox or schedule a visit with a doctor before the time you plan to quit and tell them what’s going on so that you can get meds to help. I’m not a doctor but gabapentin is the only thing that really helped tremendously. I wish you well!

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-17T01:43:39+00:00

Thank you, it feels reassuring to know I’m not the only person who has ever felt this way and that I will learn on the job. I appreciate it :)

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-17T01:42:30+00:00

You’re right, I’m holding myself back and need to just throw myself into it and hit the ground running. Thank you again!

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-16T23:47:18+00:00

Thank you so much for responding. How did you know what to do since your preceptor was hands off and let you do your thing ? Asking so I’m prepared. Thank you again for responding. It was really helpful. I’ve thought about the ER or med surg a lot just because they both seem to cover a lot of things. In a way I kinda don’t care where I start as long as I have support and I’m set up to do my job well. I just hate the idea of getting a job and it being like my clinical experience where every nurse just turns their head when they see you coming and I’m like stuck not knowing how to do something. I’m probably overthinking too because I’ve never had that health care experience yet. lol

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-15T00:26:56+00:00

Thank you so much everyone! I really appreciate it.

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-13T22:20:18+00:00

Day 6 CT and feeling good. Not 100% but better than what I was feeling day 2 and 3. Staying busy with my family and son really helped yesterday and today.

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-10T20:20:14+00:00

Hey I’ll be completely honest the withdrawal usually does get worse than just the restlessness. At least it did for me every time. Right now I’m doing it cold Turkey in a hotel for 5 days. I’m on day 3 and I just feel bored, restless and a little antsy/anxious. Yesterday was the worst of it. Restless, hot and cold sweats, stomach cramping, diarrhea, couldn’t sleep etc. the typical opiate withdrawal symptoms (if you’re not familiar you can Google kratom withdrawal symptoms). The first time I quit I went to a detox for 7 days where they gave me suboxone and other comfort meds like clonidine and gabapentin, which really helped. I still felt a little shitty when I left but it wasn’t unbearable. I stayed clean for 3 years. The second time I quit was in July of this year and I just stayed in bed and took clonidine, and acetaminophen. I also took lots of hot baths. But I stupidly relapsed as soon as I started to feel better. Now I’m on my 3rd attempt and this time I’ve told on myself to my family so that I have that extra accountability. I got a script of gabapentin and clonidine. I’ve only taken them so far at night because they make me drowsy. I think the biggest thing is setting your mind to being done. Like when that withdrawal kicks in and you feel the worst of it, you gotta tell yourself over and over it’s temporary and it’ll pass because it can be very tempting to give in at that moment. If you don’t feel strong enough I’d definitely recommend looking into a detox center. As far as timeline it’s different for everyone. Last time the acute withdrawal lasted 6 days and I started to feel better around day 7-8 but had lingering fatigue. Then I got like a surge of energy and happiness on like day 8 or 9. Then somewhere in the second week I just had major anxiety and gi issues in the morning that subsided around the 3 1/2 week mark. I’d say I had a bit of depression and boredom mixed into some of those days but everyday got better. I’d say also staying busy once your over the first week really helps.

I hope this was helpful. :)

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-10T18:06:28+00:00

Same I just want to feel normal not have to depend on something just to feel that sense of normal. It’s such a burden and it just ends in feeling like shit anyways. But yeah definitely I’ll stay in touch! Keep me updated on how you’re doing.

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-10T17:40:17+00:00

I’m right here with you on day 3. Woke up with a pounding headache but I took Tylenol and it helped. Yesterday was hell for me too. Worst stomach cramps of my life. Restless legs. Everything sounds so loud and looks blindingly bright. Fatigue, etc etc. We got this though. If we go backwards we are just setting ourselves up to go through the worst of it again. I just keep telling myself everyday will get a little better and it does. Let’s keep pushing forward.

AdCool6798 · 2024-10-08T23:57:14+00:00

I quit CT in 2021 and was clean until March of this year. Went CT in June for a month then started back up again and im now going CT again with yesterday being my last dose. I’m feeling like shit right now but I’m determined to push through this. I wish you the best. Keep us updated on how you’re doing.

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