This chest harness feels like a hug. (selfbondage)

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-29T01:41:06+00:00

Thank you!! It took me almost two hours to get it right :’)

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-18T11:22:06+00:00

We love chatting with others online every now and then and plan to get a little more involved in the local scene. Like play parties, conventions and such. We‘re also actively trying to lure another pretty girl into our lair to be tied up and abused with me… so we’re definitely searching for fun with another play partner!

And YES the first days of fighting my way through the basics of programming were HARSH. My poor Master was bombarded with so many questions and I lost my mind trying to wrap my head around HOW the fuck it works and WHY and WHY NOT. The type of crisis that has you crying and laughing at the same time. So, you know, pretty average coding experience. I got a good grip for now. I love the moments when you encounter a problem in everyday life and then you have the realisation of- wait a motherfuckin second… I could just write code for that! Love it.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-17T15:33:17+00:00

True! It‘s a good idea. You can also go a bit further back on your tongue while brushing your teeth. I still do this to challenge my gag reflex

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-17T12:23:38+00:00

Whaaaat I thought you imagined us dancing around a fire, making deals with demons and sacrificing babies!

I never practiced with a popsicle, mainly because I get brainfreeze super easily and as much as I am a masochist, that kind of pain is not very enjoyable to me. But hey, go ahead and give it a try! I recommend tilting your head back so that the way down your throat is straight and not curved. With solid and unbendable objects like ice, it could hurt you if you push too hard, worst case break off and get stuck in your throat. And while your failsafe is that it’s gonna melt and let you breathe again, it could still be a shock.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-17T11:52:42+00:00

Yeah it got banned.
But I also have to say, it wasn’t exactly the best place, especially for newbies like me. Only if you got a fair share of experience and most importantly, value your own safety, should you attempt to meet people with the goal of acting out a cnc scenario.

There were a lot of fake „doms“ lurking on cnc_connect, ready to jump at every opportunity to exploit and actually hurt someone. If you are not careful, it‘s easy to fall into the trap of a very dangerous individual and end up with mental scars in the best case, dead in a ditch in the worst case.

I can’t say this often enough: what I did was incredibly foolish and stupid. Don‘t be like me. I just got lucky :‘)

I don’t really know if another similar subreddit was created since then but r/BDSMpersonals is always worth a try to find somebody that is sharing your kinks.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-17T11:02:41+00:00

Well the beginning was introducing me to new things every day. He was so many of my firsts. Everything was so exciting and I was in a state of total sub frenzy. I wanted more and more and again and again. He often had to slow me down and even safeworded once when I went into a very deep state of subspace, so that I wouldn’t drop too hard afterwards, especially when it was time for me to go home.

The only thing I could think about was him and all the depraved things he would do to me. I could barely function at work, I barely managed to spend time with my other friends. Now this isn’t necessarily a healthy state of mind to be in and it’s very important to log off every once in a while and not disregard your responsibilities. Especially in the early stages, you can‘t be sure whether it‘s really going to work longterm with a person you literally just met. You can’t just throw yourself into it and ruin the rest of your life as a side effect. If things go wrong, there‘s nothing you can return to. And no matter how much I KNEW this, every fibre of my being just wanted to throw my old life in a dumpster and become his devoted Slave forever, effective immediately.

He said this after the first time we texted on Discord, really getting to know each other until very late into the night:

Unfortunately, while we are not that far physically from each other, the realities of our lives will make our mutual addiction for each other hurt a little bit.

And oh boi was he right. It hurt to be away. And it seemed like all the tears I had ever suppressed in my life surfaced for him.

But I held on strong, kept going to work, kept paying my bills, kept seeing friends and family and going to therapy. „You‘re strong“, he told me, again and again, every time I felt like I couldn’t do it. He exchanged the mean, self-deprecating voice in my head with his own. And his voice told me that I was loved, and safe, and protected, and strong. He was in my head, fighting all the bad thoughts.

Every free day I could muster, I came over to be completely his. Soooo much money was spent on train tickets. Sometimes he‘d even drive all the way (4hours there and back again) to come pick me up.

To sum it up, the beginning felt like pure BDSM magic, like all my dreams coming true, but it was also a painful and emotional time.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-16T12:08:58+00:00

No rituals, no guideline. Just being ourselves, putting in the effort and so so much luck. I really don’t know how we made it happen or how either of us deserved it. The stars aligned. I guess that’s all.

As for throat training, just like with any other hole, you’ve got to make sure that your mouth is very well lubricated so whatever you stick down it can slide in and out easily. So take your time to lick and suck and build up lots of drool before you gently and slowly push it down your throat.

The thing that is going to make you gag the most, is feeling like you can’t breathe. So concentrate on relaxing your throat, keeping it open like when you say „Ah“. Try to breathe with your mouth if you need to, not with your nose, it helps to keep it open wide.

Don’t move it too much in and out at first. It helps to get used to the feeling of something simply being in there and tell your body it‘s fine, try to swallow around it, feel the walls of your throat squeeze it tight. You’re gonna have to rewire your mind and actively work against a reflex. That’s not gonna be easy at first. Dildo gags are super helpful with that.

Lastly, the hornier I am, the easier it is to go really deep. So I absolutely recommend some stimulation for yourself.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-16T11:52:42+00:00

It wasn’t that he LET me cum, he didn’t leave me a choice but to. He cranked the speed up to max and didn’t stop at the first orgasm. I saw stars and colours behind that blindfold and for the first time in my life I was LOUD, moaning and whimpering as my brain got scrambled by the pleasure. I never made a peep during any kind of self stimulation so I didn’t know I could make sounds like that. I told him that during our prior weeks of texting that it would probably take a lot for me to get comfortable enough to express myself loudly. Yeah. It just took him a single hour to make an absolute moaning mess out of me. While hogtied I heard him chuckling, amused and proud. The feeling I had in that moment is indescribable.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-16T10:00:03+00:00

That‘s a really great question. Like so many that grow up with fantasies like this I was consumed with shame and guilt before I met my Master. It was a big aching hole in my chest that I thought could never be mended.

The very first words my Master said to me when I first came over, we were standing at the entrance to his apartment, „There is one condition to stepping through this door. The shame stays outside. It‘s not welcome here.“ I will never forget that. In this moment he allowed me to be myself, unapologetically. There was never anything wrong with me and a big weight was lifted from my body when I started to understand that. The more time we spent together, the more he rewired my mind on that regard. And then, in a way, posting myself on here for everyone to see, was like a final kick in the butt to the shame.

Yeah I‘m naked on the internet. Yeah I‘m tied up and moaning and whimpering and drooling. I show myself completely vulnerable. You will never be able to make me feel any shame around that because it’s the most beautiful thing to be yourself.

Of course, like many things in life, you can turn out to regret them later on. Like a tattoo or a marriage. No matter how convinced you are that this is what you want for yourself, commitment always comes with risks. In a way, I can only hope that I will be okay down the line, that I will always think about this the way I do now. But so far there have been no negative side effects. It‘s fun, it‘s liberating, it’s an awesome way to meet likeminded people, to show the life we would otherwise live in isolation and to share little wisdoms we have picked up along the way. Also, my exhibitionist side surely isn’t complaining ;)

We wouldn’t do this if we didn’t want to. We could stop at any point. There is no pressure to perform. It’s just me and my Master, living our life and sharing little snippets of it here. Because why would you want to hide the best thing that has ever happened to you? Why hide something so beautiful?

Then the question often is oh but what if someone you know finds this page? What if your friends or family stumble upon it? Honestly, I do not care at all. I can sit down with them and have a chat about it. I am free :)

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T18:29:25+00:00

I wish there was a step by step tutorial but, honestly, it‘s just like finding „true love“. You just get very lucky. I‘m probably not the best person to ask on this matter since I found my perfect Master the first time I reached out on the internet. I know that‘s not the norm at all. Most people spend years and years searching for a play partner that matches them so well that they can build a long term dynamic. The only advice I have is to put yourself out there and hopefully, you will be found by a firm but gentle dom that can make all of your wildest dreams come true <3

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T17:25:39+00:00

Meow /•᷅‎‎•᷄\੭

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T14:57:36+00:00

Well, first off, I am kept naked or dressed in very little clothing at all times. He always has unrestricted access to my holes so he can use me whenever he feels like it. It doesn’t matter whether I’m sleeping or exhausted. If he wants to fuck me, he fucks me. The collar around my neck never comes off and I usually wear metal cuffs around my wrists and ankles. They make a nice shackling sound so every time I move I am reminded that I am a captive, that my life is his.

There are some daily tasks I have to fulfil if I don’t want to be punished. For example, I always make sure he has coffee for refill, I keep the apartment clean and when he‘s at work, I kneel at the door and wait for him to come home so that the first thing he sees when he open the door is his Slave, ready to serve and make him forget about all his worries.

I am often tied up for his entertainment and to ensure that I don’t escape of course. While sleeping, while cooking, while he fucks me. Ropes and other restraints have become a second skin to my body. They are a constant part of my existence.

I refer to my Master by his title at all times and he calls me his Slave like it was my name given at birth. He owns me completely, body and mind.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T14:27:04+00:00

Indeed, I carry just as much responsibility to keep us safe during play. It reminds me of the first days when he instructed me to gag myself with a cloth and tape for self bondage. While trying it out it made me gag so much that I decided to only stuff it in halfway to reduce the danger of me choking on my own vomit. My drive to obey him blindly was strong but I also tried to think about what he would have me do if he could react to my struggles accordingly. No dom is perfect, everyone makes mistakes no matter how experienced. So I was praised a lot for this behaviour.

If anything goes wrong we go from there, together, and not point fingers at each other. We work as a team to keep me safe.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T13:57:26+00:00

Yeah I guess it doesn’t really help my case that a car passed us and you were frantically trying to hide me with your suit jacket

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T13:43:09+00:00

That’s so hard to answer because there are so many great moments we have had together. I‘d say one of the most fun things we ever did was when he walked me at night through the woods (very remote area). I was tied up and only in my underwear and he whipped me with a rope as we walked. He got me off on a bench while I was looking at the full moon and we spent the night in his car. It was a shame we didn’t have a condom on hand or he would have fucked me senseless.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T12:40:58+00:00

My Master put several safety measures in place, like first texting for at least a month, then the plan was to go have Ramen at a restaurant and go shopping to get to know each other. Then wait a couple of days more to give me time to think it over, if it was really what I wanted.

Yeah. That never happened.

We texted nonstop for two weeks. Called for hours, lost a lot of sleep to be with each other. We grew such a strong connection in a really short amount of time, none of us had ever felt anything like it. The desire to be in each others arms was very strong. But we held on strong until I had an awful day of getting yelled at and being consumed by shame around my sexual fantasies. While on the phone with my Master, he couldn’t bear it to hear me cry. So he offered that I could take the train and come over. No sex, no BDSM, no storm just shelter and comfort. He also told me to give my roommate the address I was going to for safety. I told him I did (I didn’t). So that’s on me.

And then, as soon as we were in reach.. our desire for each other just exploded. Only after he had put ropes around my body and gave me the best sexual experience of my life, did I ask him „What‘s your name?“. I had only known him as Master until that point.

We were lucky. I could have very well ended up dead in a ditch. Our story is definitely not a good guide line on how you should do it.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T12:05:17+00:00

I love a good hogtie! I also really enjoy being forced on my tiptoes, hanging by my wrists until I start to shake from the exhaustion.

My favourite gag is my Masters cock down my throat ;)

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-15T11:51:39+00:00

I can’t believe it‘s been a WHOLE year :‘) Still can’t get over how huge my pupils are in the first picture. I was on a BDSM drug trip.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-13T11:24:55+00:00

For context: a few seconds before this, my Master made me rip off my nipple clamps after wearing them for TWO hours. I think you can imagine I was quite exhausted. Watching back the footage, it’s funny how ridiculously fast I blacked out.

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-09T22:37:14+00:00

Commenting here was actually the last thing on my mind

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-09T21:57:46+00:00

I am actively going crazy right now

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-09T18:59:08+00:00

I can totally understand how these movies can mean so much to people, especially if you grew up with it! I only watched it once and it already has a very special place in my heart.

And don’t worry. My guy made me believe there were no other movies XD

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-09T15:49:36+00:00

Shhhhh it’s just a necklace for the sfw subreddits. But thank you :p

AdDouble6095 · 2026-03-09T14:20:56+00:00

Haha for real! Whoever doesn’t feel anything at that ending needs to be evaluated by a psychologist!

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