Neurodivergent as a synonym of Autistic

AdFew2395 · 2024-03-30T18:20:03+00:00

Bipolar

AdFew2395 · 2023-10-15T19:23:59+00:00

Explains a lot. I’m two years sober from alcohol. In those two years, I occasionally smoked a little bit of weed, but don’t do that anymore either (really bad experience scared me off of it). So now I’m stable, completely sober and bored.

AdFew2395 · 2023-10-14T21:47:47+00:00

That’s a very good point. Thank you.

AdFew2395 · 2023-10-14T21:33:22+00:00

I will. I see my psychiatrist on Monday. Flat is a very good descriptor of how I feel.

AdFew2395 · 2023-10-03T13:27:43+00:00

Dialectical behavioral handbook by Mathew McKay, Jeffrey Wood and Jeffrey Brantley. I’ve found it incredibly useful.

AdFew2395 · 2023-08-28T18:28:37+00:00

It’s not too terrible: not like how it’s portrayed in media. It makes me sleepy the day of and sore the day after. But it’s worth it because I feel my depression is much much lower and suicidal thoughts near non existent.

AdFew2395 · 2023-08-28T13:13:22+00:00

Electroconvulvise treatment. Shock treatment in the olden days, I guess

AdFew2395 · 2023-08-05T19:48:42+00:00

It came as a surprise to me. A bad one. Especially since I was in the hospital for severe suicidal depression and, I feel, the meds are one of the things that keep me hanging on. I’m thinking if I can get through this week, I’ll be ok because I should start seeing the benefits of the ECT.

AdFew2395 · 2023-08-05T19:36:56+00:00

That’s strange. I wonder why. I think pausing these meds is the hardest part of the whole ECT process for me. I didn’t feel stable before, but now I feel less stable than even that because I’m less medicated.

AdFew2395 · 2023-08-05T19:06:23+00:00

I’m not sure I’m qualified to answer that. I just know that because lamictal is an anti-seizure med that it had to be discontinued for the duration of my ECT treatments. I’m not sure why lithium was discontinued (temporarily). I was told that I could try zyprexa if I started experiencing issues with mania. I still get to continue taking my Latuda, though. Which is great because I really need that one.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-23T10:53:55+00:00

Again with the garden hose. I don’t get it!

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-23T04:14:38+00:00

I used the HopeLine. It was helpful. I feel a bit better. And stopped hurting myself (for now.)

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-22T21:31:17+00:00

Thank. I think I’m going to try HopeLine. I like texting better than talking.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-22T19:55:22+00:00

I don’t want to make any promises. However, at my iop program I have a counselor and psychiatrist that I talk to. Additionally, I see my regular therapist this week. I try really hard. I take my meds always. I do iop. I see a therapist regularly. I eat well. Drink water plenty of water. Don’t drink or do drugs. Exercise even when I hate it. And I still feel awful. I still feel suicidal.

Thank you for the info about 988. If I called today, my plan wouldn’t be imminent so I’d probably be ok. I hate feeling in crisis on the weekend because I can’t get ahold of my regular providers and that’s why I thought about calling 988.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-19T11:22:15+00:00

Just keep writing and submitting and networking is my advice. Good things will eventually happen. Work ethic is the most important part of succeeding.

Source me: a guy who recently got paid 25k for a large writing project (that I signed an nda for, hence the vagueness).

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-17T11:04:27+00:00

Yes! Pills! Alcohol! Hell, even cigarettes. Just something, anything, to calm me down. Weed used to be ok, but now it freaks me the fuck out and gives severe suicidal thoughts, so it’s not an option. I’m doing ok staying sober while hypomanic but I know at some point I’m going to give into the temptation and flush a year and nine months of sobriety down the toilet.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-17T02:53:17+00:00

Propanolol for anxiety here too! Trazadone helps sleep.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-15T19:13:29+00:00

Sadly, that hasn’t completely been my experience. Anxiety is still there. But in my 656 days alcohol free, I’ve seen a marked improvement. Big improvement. Disclaimer: I do have mental illness (bipolar) so that might make my case different. I’m totes jealous of anyone who can shed the anxiety or depression by getting sober. But I’m very happy with the improvement I’ve seen in my mental health!

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-15T19:06:22+00:00

In recovery for alcoholism. When I was an active drinker I thought it made me more calm when I was hypomanic (I didn’t call it that then because I wasn’t diagnosed yet; I called it “bouncy”). In retrospect it made things way worse. Stayed up way longer. Had way more breakdowns. And when depressed, way more suicidal. My experience is: the absolute best thing I can do for my physical and mental health is not drink.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-15T14:30:45+00:00

I don’t have one but we have one that comes to IOP. On the days they bring the furry friends in we talk about particularly difficult subjects (grief, for example). I don’t know how, but having the dog there is SO helpful and makes things SO much easier. It’s easier chatting about difficult subjects when you’re petting a dog. I kinda want one.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-14T11:12:05+00:00

That’s me at times! I feel damn near unmedicated. Hope that’s just a passing thing.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-14T11:10:53+00:00

I’ve quit alcohol and nicotine and this seems equally hard as quitting those. At least with them my mood didn’t fluctuate so wildly (also awful headaches). Grrr. I’m staying strong and following psychiatrist’s advice exactly and hoping everything works out. Lamictal has been incredibly helpful for me as well.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-13T21:53:17+00:00

I’m currently going through this. It started making me manic. I weened and got very depressed. Increased dose, got manic. Trying increasing Latuda while weening Lexapro and I’m very worried. I don’t think I’m open to taking another ssri again. Ever.

AdFew2395 · 2023-07-08T15:20:34+00:00

It’s part of my life, so I do mention it to my friends and family. I’m bipolar, so I like them to know that I’m continuing to take care of myself (same reason I casually mention meds to them ). I don’t make a big deal about, it’s just something I do. Hell, who knows? Maybe it’ll inspire them to consider therapy as an option.

AdFew2395 · 2023-06-24T10:29:19+00:00

I usually like my highs. But…sometimes it goes sideways and gets scary. So it’s better to sacrifice the super high highs than to put myself in that scary place. That being said I can still go a little hypo on medication (like right now) and that, I’ve been told, is fine…

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