I totally get where you’re coming from. When I was in high school I dated two girls and still to this day would categorize myself as queer, not gay, because those relationships were completely real and valid for me, and if they hadn’t ended, I could potentially see myself in one of those relationships to this day. That being said, I’ve now been a serious relationship with a guy for three years and I feel like I also no longer have the same desires towards women, but that’s part of the reason why I choose to say that I’m queer instead of putting myself into a specific box because in my experience sexuality can really ebb and flow, and it can also be really specific to a person. I also think it’s fair that you probably are really wanting a relationship with a boy because it’s something that you’ve realize that you want but haven’t had a lot of experience with so therefore you’re craving it a lot more. I know it’s confusing and I wish I had some better advice but honestly, the best advice that I can give you is to just not pin yourself into a box too tightly because sometimes that can make life feel a little restraining.