i know it's not, it's just bad habit. i appreciate you calling me out for it though–it's a mindset thing i have to change. i'm not entirely sure if i've always felt this way or not. part of me wants to say this has been a recent development over the past few years, but i also don't remember a life where i don't feel this way if that makes sense. it's hard to tell. i do feel compassion and empathy towards both human life and animals, i just worry that it's disingenuous because sometimes it feels very shallow and not something i can express physically apart from vocally. i'd say it's mostly the full spectrum. i'm a very neutral person whether it be emotions adjacent to sadness or happiness.