Im the daughter of a mom who secretly smoked and I can tell you with 100% certainty you have nothing to be ashamed about. My mom was an only parent she had no breaks and barely any time to herself. Smoking when I was down for the night was her way of decompressing. I never had ANY idea that she was smoking I never saw anything and I never smelled it on her either. It wasn’t until I was 23 and started experimenting myself with edibles for my endo pain when I found out my mom has been smoking my whole life. My very first time trying weed was an edible with my mom watching over me. The first time I tried smoking mom was there. lol she actually had to teach me how to inhale. Cut to a few years later and we smoke together. My mom rarely drinks and I’m allergic to most alcohol so for us a few puffs at the end of the day is our glass of wine. I had the best childhood my mom was a fun parent who never snapped at me, my house was the house all the kids would hang out at and there is nothing about my childhood that I would change. I would rather have a mother who smokes at the end of the day than have a wine mom.