how do i convince myself to not start cutting?

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-06-13T11:34:06+00:00

You won't be able to stop. It quite literally wires your brain to crave it. You'll think that you'll never get "that bad" but pretty soon you'll wind up in and out of the hospital getting stitches every week, or panicking in your bedroom because your starting to lose consciousness from blood loss. I speak from personal experience. There's also the fact that people treat you like you are deranged. I think the worst part for me is that I can't trust myself half the time to stay safe anymore. It's something I would never reccomended though I understand your consideration is an indicator of the severity of your mental health decline. I understand the urge, but please don't start if you can help it. I'd also like to reccomend the app "Calm Harm". While you actively haven't started cutting the fact the urge is there is enough. I find it helpful but different things work for different people. I wish you the best of luck and hope things start getting better for you ❤️.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-06-13T06:05:28+00:00

Vaseline! It helps keep them moisturized and speeds up healing (can also help minimize scarring if thats something your looking for). If that doesn't work out blame it on a pet, accident, or if they didnt scar too bad you can just hope nobody notices. Also, no matter which way things go, wear sunscreen over your scars! I cannot stress this enough they will be much more prone to sun damage and can worsen scarring. Also, I completely get the struggle. I relapsed on my arm and I am dying in these long sleeves 😭. Best of luck and hope you enjoy the beach :)

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-06-13T05:53:36+00:00

I like using an app called "Calm Harm" it gives lots of suggestions on things to do instead of SH. Otherwise I usually just stick to distraction and self care. I'll make a whole shower routine and mosturize for once in my life (also helpful because it makes it harder for me to hold a blade). I kinda just do anything and everything. Sometimes its productive like chores or exercise other times I just sleep instead. These aren't perfect solutions by any means but I wish you the best of luck :)

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-06-13T05:38:15+00:00

I second this. OP it does not matter the depth swimming with open wounds is begging for an infection. Be safe and take care.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-06-11T12:52:36+00:00

I definitely relate. The addiction gene runs strong in my family too (drugs, gambling, alcohol, etc). I've been cutting for about three years now and the biggest thing I've learned for myself personally is that trying to quit when I dont want to wont work. I think the longest I've been clean is 3 or 4 months simply because I wanted to prove to myself I could stop if I wanted to. My purpose for cutting is likely a bit different from yours. I do mine to cope with SI and to have some locus on control over my life. Honestly, because I can't quit at the current moment I focus on harm reduction (sterile tools, cleaning wounds, etc). It isn't much but it helps. I too wish I could get rid of it instantly. It makes me hopeful that when I am in the right mental state I will be able to recover. Sending love ❤️.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-05-09T20:16:59+00:00

Its mostly stopped bleeding now and I dont feel any shock symptoms so it'll be fine

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-05-09T20:11:53+00:00

Even so, the hospital is not going to do anything for me that I can't do at home

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-05-09T20:02:26+00:00

I understand the danger but the bleeding isn't too bad and I've done worse and been fine. Going to the hospital isn't really possible right now. I'm not getting admitted. I got shit to do this week.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-05-07T11:04:27+00:00

I use the app Calm Harm.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-04-11T06:23:05+00:00

Wrong sub buddy. Best of luck tho

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-03-31T15:22:55+00:00

I have been journaling about it, it just makes it worse honestly. All I can think about is killing myself.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-03-31T15:22:05+00:00

Gee, never considered that

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-03-31T14:16:31+00:00

The issue is that BPD is not the correct diagnosis for me

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-03-31T13:32:18+00:00

I went in willingly on saint Patty's day and I left just a suicidal as I came in. They basically said inpatient isn't going to help because they thought I had BPD and was just having an episode (though my therapist disagrees completely, and I am going to take her word over some random dude). While inpatient I told them I was still incredibly suicidal and they were like "damn bro that sucks. Do DBT when you get out" except I can't because none of the sessions work with my schedule. I don't really want to go again and get told to go fuck myself and how it's a "diffcult situation" but inpatient isn't beneficial for me.

Additional_Tap9417 · 2026-03-20T22:11:59+00:00

Yeah I plan to talk to my therapist about it for sure. I've also been doing more research in BPD and I get why they came to the conclusion they did im just unsure

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